Tuesday Night, late night

Listening to Gento basically on repeat. I remember when SB19 first started. I am so proud to know P-Pop has taken off because the language totally not bias about P-Pop being just as amazing as Kpop. 

Honestly I love Filipino music a lot. 

I really should try and go to sleep...I have a long day ahead of me tomorrow. And I know I'm going to wake up dreading going because it's Wednesday at the main office. Just got to breath and take it one moment at a time. Just going to keep playing music to drown out my thoughts and hopefully influence my dreams to be nothing. You'd think having little sleep it'll make it easier for one to sleep. My mind is wide awake and so is my body.

You know. It's funny. I always dream so easily, and able to recall my dreams easily. But for now dreamless nights would be nice. 

Off topic of music and sleep...I wish it was easy to push down my emotions. Would make the huge chunks of emptiness easier to fill. Talking to him endlessly every day going to nothing and short messages is hard. I'm glad he still will message me back if I send him something..but I feel like if I don't send anything then we'd go a long time without talking. I wonder if he thinks he should wait to message me...I doubt it. I told him that he can message me any time he wants and I'll always reply. I think he is just busy...or just doesn't want to reach out for the time being. Ahhh over thinking again. Heh there goes my insecurities going all over the place again.

I'm okay being alone. I still have floor time when I feel very overwhelmed. Eh I'm going to end this post now before I start crying. I'm so overly sensitive about every little thing.

Going to try and get some rest. Even if means just laying there staring at the ceiling until my eyes feel heavy. 

Well, `Ciao.