07.04.25 Friday afternoon

Finally cracked open my year book from my senior year of Nursing. It's a whole other life time ago. 2018. Me. So much makeup on my face. They tried making me look more Pinay for the photos. I remember the day I had the photo taken. So much back and forth about how much makeup I should wear. The makeup artist and I didn't get a long well at all. I was so pissed they shaved the ends of my eye brows just to draw them back on BASICALLY the same. They also put so much hair spray on the top of my hair to "flatten it" since I refused to allow them to straighten my hair and my bangs just kept getting in my face..-laughs- good times. And I "had to remove my glasses", went through the whole yearbook and saw maybe 3-4 people wearing glasses.

Either Sammie or Yna wrote that paragraph. I was scary to look at or talk to at first. Not because I looked mean, just because I look foreign and my mannerisms aren't fully Filipino. Thankfully I did find friends there who stood by me through some pretty dark times. 

Reading this...well it's still true...mostly. I will fight if needed, I love pancit and make it at least once a month(always make too much but it's my comfort noodle dish)...but thinking positively. There are days that are harder to do so. I still have a positive outlook on life.

Bonus note about this photo, I was drunk during the actual photo taking. -laughs- now I have been sober for years. Almost bought alcohol today though. Picked it up, put it in my cart and went around the store only to get to checkout and as the cashier was about to scan it told her I changed my mind about it. I was going to buy it for my mom to enjoy drinking but I know if I bought it I'd be tempted to drink it too. Anyways, that's all for now. Going to walk over to the park and look at the sky for a bit. 

Until next time `Ciao