Kay Karon

Ako ra sa kapoy, ug sakit-sakit. Pero oi sa klasmet sa gibuhat ako smile-smile.

Karon ko klasmet "palihog kaw entrante sa Story Telling Tin?"

Okie ra, sa ako. Dili bisi-bisi.

Sakto oy! Hah, nadag-an ko! Hahah dili sa first place, pero tersera!

Apil sa whole university.

Sa pitlaw, dili sakto, sakit nagalabi sa panahon. 

Ako sa tingali mawad-an sa, usa ka sa usa ka tawo importante.

Sakit sa kasingkasing.

Ag blog, sa move sa bag-o site.

Pero, balik-balik unya sa damlag.

Nahigugma ako kaniya sa ingon sa daghan.

Ko gusto nga magpabilin siya, apan wala ko masayud kon sa unsang paagi sa pagsulti kaniya nga walay hinakog nga ug alang kaniya nga malipayon.

Kini tinuod nga ang-among-among.

Adiyos kay karon.

Thanksgiving Post

I am not with my friends or family for the day of thanks.

I may forget to post on Thanksgiving. 

I could go on about my thoughts, my days since,from since my last serious post. But I am not.

24 things I am thankful for. That is what this post is about.

So let us begin:

1.) My health right now.

2.) Annoying people who won't let me be alone when my face is blank.

3.)The past 7 years.

4.) Actually making it this far in life.

5.) The brief peace that fills me during walks alone.

6.) Mother nature

7.) My mom calling me and keeping me in the loop.

8.) My older sister who still treat me like the child I am.

9.) The funny fact I literally just learned my O.R instructor married a distant family member.

10.) Booze. Hah. That is a given.

11.) The way my heart beat.

12.) Unconditional love and support form my parents.

13.) Passing my classes

14.) Opening up to the person I cherish dearly

15.) Authors, I will always be thankful for books.

16.) Sam for putting up with me.

17.) Patch and Yna for always making sure I am included in things. I am pretty easily forgotten.

18.) Silvara. The group of online misfîts that try to make it through the world.

19.) Me being me.

20.) Lazy days.

22.) Rain

23.) Life

24.) For everything.

'Ciao

 

La Seine - A Monster in Paris

The moment when you are in a video call with your best friend and both of you end up singing the same song. -laughs- I love my Sonbon, and so thankful she introduces me to such magical/cute cartoon movies at random and enjoys singing as much as I do, even if we are not good at it.

6:15 PM - Monday Evening.

Today was the first day of "duty", it was such a fun experience. 

The actual day consisted of lectures, since new semester new information we will be using at the hospital. All of our hands are dying. -laughs- So many notes, which were to be checked by our clinical instructors after the day was over. Though they went through the notes quickly, it was really hard to keep up with them. I am nearly certain my phone contains 75% photos from powerpoints for my classes. -laughs- 

During lunch, Sam and I rebelled and left the school. Which is not allowed. During duty, if at school, we are to stay at school. But we wanted to know if the restaurant we enjoy (Mexican-Asian Fusion) was open at the ICM mall. So during lunch we snuck out of the campus and ate at the place. Thankfully it was open. -laughs- And then when we got back, my groupmates were so sad because they wanted to go, but the didn't have money to go there. After all foreign food tends to be a little more pricier than their food. So I told them next time we'll go all together. And they were still sad about it. And then right after the duty day ended which is at 3:30 if we are at the school, I gathered them all up and told them we should go out and "Celebrate" making it this far together. And they were thinking we were going to go to one of the small places near by and buy snacks, but I surprised them by telling the drivers to take them to the ICM. Which made them think one of the fastfood joints they have, or the food court. Nope. -smiles- I told them to follow me, and took them all to HOLA! They were so happy about it, Yna started jumping and asking what should she have, and the others were iffy since the prices, and I told them just order and never mind the bill. So the person taking the orders were enjoying the long list of foods we had. -laughs- And it was "Self service, clean as you go" place, so I lectured them to make sure to clean up after themselves and not to cause trouble for anyone. 

The were so happy. I was really happy to put a smile on their face. Yesterday ended badly and today started off badly. I am glad I didn't let the rain ruin my day. I am the mother of the group. I fed my baby ducklings. 

Hahahah, funny thing is, they'll forget about my birthday until after the day. I just love them.

The nursing squad of London Bridge(with 2 friends from Power Rangers) -laughs- 

Also, I am going to be in the first batch to Cebu for our Psych rotation. We get 6 roommates, and it works out well for our group since there are 6 girls. -laughs- We are all excited. December 5 to 9 we'll be doing BLS training to prepare us. It is a requirement we have to do before we are allowed to go there. But it is going to be so much fun because we'll get to be off for 2 weeks when the second batch goes. But we all will be here during HNU days. So that is going to be a good thing. 

Sam's mom started laughing after I yelled out "Hell yeah!" in response to the fact they will allow us to leave the boarding house to go to the mall, or Starbucks. -laughs- Cebu has better cafes, and stores. I am just so glad that I'll be with Sam, Jhens, Patch, Yna, and Pamu. -smiles- They make all of this mess bearable for me. 

Looking Through Your Eyes

It has been a while

So, I woke up to a phone call from my older sister, crying and freaking out over the US election.

I know, it has been the talk of the day and will be for a while, and it is annoying.

But I can't help but feel heartbroken. I have so many friends who are scared. And to have my very own sister call me crying, worrying what she should do. If she should leave the country and come over here, or if she should put up with it. I couldn't even describe the sorrow I felt when I didn't know what to tell her. She relies on me to be the ground for her since she had her medications reduced to a lower dosage. And I couldn't calm her nerves. 

The fear that spread through people the moment we had found out Trump won did not surprise or alarm me. I had already knew it would happen, though I had hope he wouldn't have become our President elect. I was sick to my stomach. If only my absentee ballot didn't have problems when I did try to vote. And I so glad to know I was not the only one having the problem. There were many Americans abroad who were unable to put in their voice. 

So many of my friends are in complete fear on what to do next. They fall under many of the targeted groups. Gay, lesbian, Muslim, nonwhite, nonmale, Atheist, and others. They are completely scared. To have a friend who is illegal, gay and a muslim, but has been doing his part to contribute to society in every way he can, messaged me right after asking if it was possible if he can marry me to leave the country. If the country I am in recognized divorce I wouldn't hesitate in helping him leave the country if things go south, but my circumstances here aren't really any better. I am just hoping the president here only had a problem with Obama, and nothing bad will happen. 

Though I am not in the States, it is still my country, and I am mourning this outcome fully. To even know that my dad fully supports Trump, and even lectured me about "knowing" my place in society....has he forgotten he is in an interracial marriage? That his wife is a Filipina? That his very own children are mixed? And unlike my sisters, I don't look as white as they do.

To be honest, I am scared of going back to the states. Not because of Trump, but the citizens themselves. When I was there I have dealt with constant sexual harassment, and just knowing there are so many people who are now surfaced, I can't help but feel things will get worse within communities. I don't care much about Trump, I care about what the followers are capable of doing to those that don't fit their image. 

I was unable to sleep much last night, thankfully the group of friends who I am in a group chat with, allowed me to do a group call, and just have us talk, each of us trying to calm the other down. I am 100% to the group of friends I have never met yet. I am thankful that they and I share the same ideas about love and acceptance, that even though some are not from the states or living there, they do not think of us as stupid beings, but mourn with us. I just have to find my steady ground. I been getting messages. Looks like people have started turning back to the "mother hen" for reassurance it isn't the end of the world. I have no idea what to say, since I can't even reassure myself it will all be okay.

I just hope things don't get too crazy. I really want to go back home.

I can classes starting today, at least I can try to distract myself with that. 

Please don't let the world end.