Thursday, December 15, 2016

Thursday, November 24, 2016

Kay Karon



Ako ra sa kapoy, ug sakit-sakit. Pero oi sa klasmet sa gibuhat ako smile-smile.
Karon ko klasmet "palihog kaw entrante sa Story Telling Tin?"
Okie ra, sa ako. Dili bisi-bisi.
Sakto oy! Hah, nadag-an ko! Hahah dili sa first place, pero tersera!
Apil sa whole university.

Sa pitlaw, dili sakto, sakit nagalabi sa panahon. 
Ako sa tingali mawad-an sa, usa ka sa usa ka tawo importante.
Sakit sa kasingkasing.
Ag blog, sa move sa bag-o site.
Pero, balik-balik unya sa damlag.

Nahigugma ako kaniya sa ingon sa daghan.
Ko gusto nga magpabilin siya, apan wala ko masayud kon sa unsang paagi sa pagsulti kaniya nga walay hinakog nga ug alang kaniya nga malipayon.
Kini tinuod nga ang-among-among.

Adiyos kay karon.

Tuesday, November 22, 2016

Thanksgiving Post



I am not with my friends or family for the day of thanks.
I may forget to post on Thanksgiving. 
I could go on about my thoughts, my days since,from since my last serious post. But I am not.
24 things I am thankful for. That is what this post is about.
So let us begin:

1.) My health right now.
2.) Annoying people who won't let me be alone when my face is blank.
3.)The past 7 years.
4.) Actually making it this far in life.
5.) The brief peace that fills me during walks alone.
6.) Mother nature
7.) My mom calling me and keeping me in the loop.
8.) My older sister who still treat me like the child I am.
9.) The funny fact I literally just learned my O.R instructor married a distant family member.
10.) Booze. Hah. That is a given.
11.) The way my heart beat.
12.) Unconditional love and support form my parents.
13.) Passing my classes
14.) Opening up to the person I cherish dearly
15.) Authors, I will always be thankful for books.
16.) Sam for putting up with me.
17.) Patch and Yna for always making sure I am included in things. I am pretty easily forgotten.
18.) Silvara. The group of online misfîts that try to make it through the world.
19.) Me being me.
20.) Lazy days.
22.) Rain
23.) Life
24.) For everything.

'Ciao
 

Monday, November 14, 2016

La Seine - A Monster in Paris




The moment when you are in a video call with your best friend and both of you end up singing the same song. -laughs- I love my Sonbon, and so thankful she introduces me to such magical/cute cartoon movies at random and enjoys singing as much as I do, even if we are not good at it.

6:15 PM - Monday Evening.





Today was the first day of "duty", it was such a fun experience. 

The actual day consisted of lectures, since new semester new information we will be using at the hospital. All of our hands are dying. -laughs- So many notes, which were to be checked by our clinical instructors after the day was over. Though they went through the notes quickly, it was really hard to keep up with them. I am nearly certain my phone contains 75% photos from powerpoints for my classes. -laughs- 

During lunch, Sam and I rebelled and left the school. Which is not allowed. During duty, if at school, we are to stay at school. But we wanted to know if the restaurant we enjoy (Mexican-Asian Fusion) was open at the ICM mall. So during lunch we snuck out of the campus and ate at the place. Thankfully it was open. -laughs- And then when we got back, my groupmates were so sad because they wanted to go, but the didn't have money to go there. After all foreign food tends to be a little more pricier than their food. So I told them next time we'll go all together. And they were still sad about it. And then right after the duty day ended which is at 3:30 if we are at the school, I gathered them all up and told them we should go out and "Celebrate" making it this far together. And they were thinking we were going to go to one of the small places near by and buy snacks, but I surprised them by telling the drivers to take them to the ICM. Which made them think one of the fastfood joints they have, or the food court. Nope. -smiles- I told them to follow me, and took them all to HOLA! They were so happy about it, Yna started jumping and asking what should she have, and the others were iffy since the prices, and I told them just order and never mind the bill. So the person taking the orders were enjoying the long list of foods we had. -laughs- And it was "Self service, clean as you go" place, so I lectured them to make sure to clean up after themselves and not to cause trouble for anyone. 

The were so happy. I was really happy to put a smile on their face. Yesterday ended badly and today started off badly. I am glad I didn't let the rain ruin my day. I am the mother of the group. I fed my baby ducklings. 
Hahahah, funny thing is, they'll forget about my birthday until after the day. I just love them.
The nursing squad of London Bridge(with 2 friends from Power Rangers) -laughs- 


Also, I am going to be in the first batch to Cebu for our Psych rotation. We get 6 roommates, and it works out well for our group since there are 6 girls. -laughs- We are all excited. December 5 to 9 we'll be doing BLS training to prepare us. It is a requirement we have to do before we are allowed to go there. But it is going to be so much fun because we'll get to be off for 2 weeks when the second batch goes. But we all will be here during HNU days. So that is going to be a good thing. 
Sam's mom started laughing after I yelled out "Hell yeah!" in response to the fact they will allow us to leave the boarding house to go to the mall, or Starbucks. -laughs- Cebu has better cafes, and stores. I am just so glad that I'll be with Sam, Jhens, Patch, Yna, and Pamu. -smiles- They make all of this mess bearable for me. 

Wednesday, November 9, 2016

It has been a while



So, I woke up to a phone call from my older sister, crying and freaking out over the US election.
I know, it has been the talk of the day and will be for a while, and it is annoying.
But I can't help but feel heartbroken. I have so many friends who are scared. And to have my very own sister call me crying, worrying what she should do. If she should leave the country and come over here, or if she should put up with it. I couldn't even describe the sorrow I felt when I didn't know what to tell her. She relies on me to be the ground for her since she had her medications reduced to a lower dosage. And I couldn't calm her nerves. 
The fear that spread through people the moment we had found out Trump won did not surprise or alarm me. I had already knew it would happen, though I had hope he wouldn't have become our President elect. I was sick to my stomach. If only my absentee ballot didn't have problems when I did try to vote. And I so glad to know I was not the only one having the problem. There were many Americans abroad who were unable to put in their voice. 
So many of my friends are in complete fear on what to do next. They fall under many of the targeted groups. Gay, lesbian, Muslim, nonwhite, nonmale, Atheist, and others. They are completely scared. To have a friend who is illegal, gay and a muslim, but has been doing his part to contribute to society in every way he can, messaged me right after asking if it was possible if he can marry me to leave the country. If the country I am in recognized divorce I wouldn't hesitate in helping him leave the country if things go south, but my circumstances here aren't really any better. I am just hoping the president here only had a problem with Obama, and nothing bad will happen. 
Though I am not in the States, it is still my country, and I am mourning this outcome fully. To even know that my dad fully supports Trump, and even lectured me about "knowing" my place in society....has he forgotten he is in an interracial marriage? That his wife is a Filipina? That his very own children are mixed? And unlike my sisters, I don't look as white as they do.
To be honest, I am scared of going back to the states. Not because of Trump, but the citizens themselves. When I was there I have dealt with constant sexual harassment, and just knowing there are so many people who are now surfaced, I can't help but feel things will get worse within communities. I don't care much about Trump, I care about what the followers are capable of doing to those that don't fit their image. 
I was unable to sleep much last night, thankfully the group of friends who I am in a group chat with, allowed me to do a group call, and just have us talk, each of us trying to calm the other down. I am 100% to the group of friends I have never met yet. I am thankful that they and I share the same ideas about love and acceptance, that even though some are not from the states or living there, they do not think of us as stupid beings, but mourn with us. I just have to find my steady ground. I been getting messages. Looks like people have started turning back to the "mother hen" for reassurance it isn't the end of the world. I have no idea what to say, since I can't even reassure myself it will all be okay.
I just hope things don't get too crazy. I really want to go back home.

I can classes starting today, at least I can try to distract myself with that. 
Please don't let the world end.

Tuesday, October 25, 2016

This will forever be



My favorite piano piece. It both soothes me and brings me so much emotion.
One day I will get back to the piano and learn how to properly play this masterpiece.


Saturday, October 22, 2016

1:20 AM - Sunday Early Morning



-smiles- I have been in a good mood. Not just today, but since last weekend.
Yesterday was pretty weird though. 
I did get to talk to him. Always nice. That wasn't the weird part.
I was actually really happy to have woken up from a dream of him, think of him, then end up having him message me in less than 5 minutes. -laughs- That timing was a bit weird.
I am glad that he is still in my life. He makes me smile.

I FINALLY got a hold of Sam. She is having fun in Singapore. She keeps snapchatting me the weirdest photos. I am glad she is having fun. 

I ended up waking up almost 6pm, and I had to rush to buy my sister stuff for Monday, because I don't want to do it tomorrow. Granted I am not really doing anything with myself during this break. I have just been playing Twenty, and messaging him. I am a hermit this break. -laughs-

Okay, so the weirdest part of today? My cellphone decided to play music while I was sleeping. By that, I mean my hand might have pressed the icon while I was napping without me knowing. But it did influence my dream during my nap. -smiles- I am not stating anything about the dream. But I never had my hand just slide across the screen just right to make my music play. That was very weird to me. No one else was home. My aunt took my cousins and sister to her sister's place because of a birthday party. I was too sleepy to attend, but I did give them money to buy an actual birthday cake. 

I have to buy my uncle a belated birthday cake too. -laughs- His birthday was the first of the month, and apparently Atie Atie was suppose to ask about me buying him a cake since he wanted one, but every time she was here, she never mentioned it, and my mom forgot about it. So he thinks it is because I don't love him as much as I did when I was younger. Sheesh, no one told me and I never knew his birthday. -laughs-  But nothing a late cake would fix. 

I really should be getting to bed. I am going to play two more days on Papers Please, then I am going to hit the sack.
I do hope nothing ruins my good mood I been having since last week. So calm and happy.
I am sure everyone knows why as well.

ALSO! Jen contacted me.
More of that later on though.

Tuesday, October 18, 2016

8:22 PM - Tuesday Night

So, I haven't posted here in a couple of days. 
I been busy with my replacement duty, and the weekend was amazing. -smiles-
Okay to start off, Friday was the last day of the first semester, and I had all my exams that day. It was fine. Hahah we even had a 30 minute Statistics exam. 15 minutes for the first two parts, then 5 minutes to check it, then 10 minutes for the last part. It was so stressful because it wasn't enough time to double check the calculations. But I passed it. Hahaha, so glad I did. 
  

 Then Saturday, we had our end of semester International Student get together. Joseph, Gerald, Ken and I were enjoying our time together. We were the first ones to go, since the others had class until 2 pm or 3 pm. 
Our adviser also had a class at noon that day, so she left us at the place, since we got there b ourselves. I rode with Ken and Gerald in Ken's car. And Joseph rode his motorcycle. So our adviser told us to just enjoy our time, and that she was going to order more food and drinks for us.

So right before the adviser left, Gerald and Joseph had this "amazing" idea to climb aboard the run down floating hut that was tied up near where we were sitting. It was so funny, Karina (our adviser) told me to take a photo if they fell in because she was leaving. Which I was waiting for. Lucky for them that the broken wooden chair held everyone's weight nicely, though Gerald broke it a little because he wasn't being careful. At first I didn't want to join, I didn't want to risk getting injured because it was slimy, and I didn't want to wet my shoes, or slip and get cut by a rusty nail. 

But when Alexis came, she wanted me to join in the "fun" since they had bought alcohol, and other drinks. I gave in, and Gerald and Joseph helped me climb aboard the hut. -laughs- When everyone was there together, that is when the fun began. I don't know what is wrong with us, but we ended up doing the "Bottle Flip Challenge", and literally we spent hours and hours doing it, laughing. Mainly because Joseph kept getting mad at us because he was having problems doing it. Then he got really good at it, that is when Gerald decided to make bets, "if I get it, then you girls have to get wet." "If we get it on the plank up there and it stays, then you go in the water." Oh my goodness, it was so funny because they two of them ended up focusing so much just to make us all regret agreeing. It ended up Joseph, Gerald, Alexis, and I jumping into the ocean and getting wet together, then we went on a small adventure through the "tree area" to find stuff, like hermit crabs. Ken didn't want to join because he was wearing jeans and it would take forever to dry.
 
Afterwards, Gerald and Alexis went home, because Gerald's girlfriend was bitching at him to come home right away since he was out all day. So Alexis took him, since she also brought her car with her. Joseph, Ken and I stayed because Vivien and her brother had just arrived and we didn't want to be rude. So after staying there for another 2 hours Vivien's brother went out because he had a date, the Ken wanted to go eat tacos, so he took us to go to a good place to eat dinner. We ended up just sitting there until almost 9pm, just talking and joking around. It was actually really nice not to have to worry about anything and enjoy a day out. I even got to ride on Joseph's motorcycle! But then it was raining so I went back to Ken's car. -laughs- 
Ken ended up taking me home because it was late and there is a high risk of danger if I rode by tricycle to go home. He didn't mind much because we are friends and I can handle his personality with ease.




 Then Sunday...I was so happy Sunday. -smiles- I got to talk to him. It was so nice, it wasn't for an hour either. It was basically from almost 9 til noon, even though I would have liked more time to talk to him, I did get to talk to him, and we ended up going to sleep at the same time. I got to say, I actually slept peacefully for a change. I was up refreshed and that was a big change than how I usually wake up.
I did sing him a song, like he asked me to, I sent it to him, hopefully he received it. Talking to him also had put me in a cheerful mood during my replacement duty this week. I had to make up two days, because I was lacking hours for my hospital time. Which is fine with me, gives me something to do during break. And it was actually a lot more fun than it was during regular duty. -laughs- 

Anyways, even my clinical instructors noticed the change in my attitude, and they were happy I was feeling much better. Though when asked I didn't tell them it was because I talked to someone so important to me. But that is because that person is a guy, and I know Mam Chona would flip out and lecture me about how I have to stay single and how bad guys are, etc. -laughs- She gets mad even when a girl is close friends with a guy. To save myself a long lecture, I didn't say anything other than I am very happy. Thankfully Mam left it at that. 

Today I was at the Medical 2 ward, and the instructor there actually trusted everyone to do things on our own. Which made it exciting. I was able to terminate IVFs, and do CBG monitoring. I got to "stab" patients and test their blood sugar throughout the shift. Hahaha, Mam Godinez said I was too good and quick about the monitoring, since I didn't need to be told when to do it, or how to do. Plus I always managed to prick the patient just right so I didn't have to milk the finger to get blood out. 
I also had to do discharge papers for my actual patient. I hate doing discharge, it is so much paperwork, and it isn't in English so I have to keep double checking to make sure what I was writing made sense. -laughs- Thankfully I ended up not having a problem with it. The day went by smoothly, though I ended up falling asleep when I got home. I was so tired because it was so hot today. 




BUT FINALLY I AM ON MY BREAK! And I don't have classes until November 10th. Because duty doesn't happen during the first week, so I'd only have to go to my minor classes during the first week. I am actually happy about this. I would have time to relax, and if he comes online I can talk to him freely. And if he doesn't mind, I can spam him with messages and whatnot. 

I seriously did miss him. He doesn't know how important he is to me. Hahah, or maybe he does. I am just glad he is well and alive. I do hope I get to talk to him soon. (Oh my god, see I am rambling on about him again! Oh well, I am happy and that is all that matters)

I also doodled something this evening after I woke up. I am heading back to bed now, since nothing to do online. -smiles- Going to enjoy doing nothing for about 3 weeks. 

Tuesday, October 11, 2016

Back to Disney Mood Again



Because I am feeling almost 100% better.
Duty was fine, and now trying to get my life back together after 2 weeks of not being able to do everything in a timely manner.
FINALS WEEK! I GOT THIS!
Next 2 weeks will be such a relaxing time for me. -smiles-

Also, had another dream of him. It was both weird and funny.
Hope he is well.

Saturday, October 8, 2016

5:48 PM - Saturday Evening



Okay....I got severely ill this week....AGAIN. That's right. Last week I had a god awful cold, and this week I did as well.
So what happened? Went on that stupid pilgrimage for the school. Forced of course. It was okay, long walking distance, nothing I couldn't handle. Then hung out with my group of friends. All nice and good. We watched "Miss Peregrine's Home for Peculiar Children". I enjoyed it a lot. Always nice to go out and eat then watch a movie with good friends. After all we had no classes. 
I go home, everything is fine. I go take a nap. Wake up around 4:40, almost 5 pm....freezing, in my room. My air conditioning not running. Apparently I complained to my sister how I was cold and she turned it off hours before I woke up. I go downstairs, I go to the bathroom to do my business. I stumble out, unable to move further I sit at the table and I ask for water because I feel weak. Apparently I was burning up, I told them I was cold not hot, and told them to take my temp if they didn't believe me. 39.8 degrees. That was by 5:30pm. No matter what they did the fever didn't break until 2am.
Now, one may be wondering why I didn't admit myself into the hospital. Simple. I work at the hospital here. I know what the other hospitals here have. They would just give me sponge baths and medicine then check back on me later.
During that time I was also working on my sample thesis and it turned out my friend Jhens was also suffering the same thing I was. But she went to the ER, she couldn't stay hydrated. 
I apparently have more will power than many when it comes to staying out of the hospital. 
Missed school Thursday. Was planning on attending my last two classes that day but my body wouldn't have it. I ended up in a relapse of what happened the night before. Still didn't go to the hospital. 
Turns out my classmate Jhens has intestinal amoebiasis. And that became a concern for everyone who shared food/drinks with her during Wednesday. Only two people gotten sick that day. Jhens. And me. So when she found out, everyone called me to inform me.
I go to the hospital Friday evening. After going to a clinic to get a checkup on myself and get meds to get better. Anyways, I go and give my samples and wait. They force me to drink rehydration salts, thinking I wasn't keeping myself hydrated because I was sweating so much I looked like I just stepped out of the pool no matter how many times my aunt would wipe me down.
Good news. I don't have parasites.
But I suffered horrible abdominal pain, back pain, vomiting, diarrhea, and high fevers for 3 days straight. Which all started from having hyperthermia. -shakes head-
To be put on bed rest. No. I am too busy.
But through all of that, I kept wondering if I would ever speak to him again.
I kept wondering if I told my parents enough times I loved them and was thankful.
I felt like I was dying. And according to everyone I looked like I was dying.
Apparently not having color in my face and not being active really shocks everyone.
Still not 100% better. Still recovering from last week too. But at least I am getting better.
I do hope Jhens feels better soon as well.
I am happy I am not dying just yet.

Friday, September 30, 2016

10:38 PM - Friday Night


Week was going swell, up til yesterday. 
Yesterday I got sick, lost my voice and kept falling asleep in class. Scared almost everyone because mid-conversation I would nod off into a light sleep. Hahah. 
I think just the weather changes are getting to me again.
Skipped school today because I kept falling asleep. I couldn't kept my eyes open.
Feeling better now. Had a small scare after I coughed up a bit of blood. Always scary when one coughs up blood. I watch too many medical shows, read way to many medical books, so I thought I was dying. Thank fucking goodness my uncle Bobong came over to check up on me and give me a quick assessment. Just a bad case of sinusitis. So far no more coughing up blood since that one time. Thought the worst has finally happened. Thank goodness this time it was all in my head.

Other than that, O.R has been a lot of fun this week. I made friends with this one staff nurse who keeps joking around with me. Whenever I needed his signature he would run away. Eventually he got lectured by my instructor that he has no choice but to sign. A 45 year old man getting lectured by a 50 something year old woman on acting like a child. -laughs- 
He thanked me for the cookies I baked him Wednesday. He actually found my facebook just to thank me. Usually would be creeped out, but since most of the staff nurses and doctors befriends the students, I found it normal. Didn't add him as a friend. Cannot handle his peering into my life online, even just a little! Bad enough he now knows my hair is curly. Tsk tsk, he is like an older brother. Hope he gets married so I can embarrass him towards his wife.
I also ended up talking to a doctor in the PACU room of the OR. -laughs- In all honestly, I didn't know he was a doctor. He dressed like a nurse, and kept hanging around the student quarters. He almost saw me undress because of it. -shakes head- Thankfully I wasn't, just getting ready until I heard a voice. He didn't know, he was looking for Yna because of the specimen bottle from her surgery wasn't labeled. Everyone had a great laugh because Clave was the one who screamed and tried to hide himself. He may be a male, but he is a true female. Hahahaha.

Anyways, worked on my thesis a bit yesterday and today. 
Talked with my mom, she swears I look like I am on the brink of death and that I need sleep. She called me ugly for having such huge eyebags now. Not my fault I am sick with assignments piled up on me. 
Got them mostly done, just resting now. Feeling loads better, and....
I had a dream about him last night. I cannot remember anything from the dream, but he appeared and smiled at me. He said something. Hahaha forgot what it was. Dream me seriously should pay attention.
It was really odd, haven't been able to recall my dreams due to being overly tired, but just recalling him being in my head when I slept was....somewhat comforting.

Friday, September 23, 2016

1:56 AM - Saturday Morning




Hahahah, well today was interesting.
Yna's birthday. And of course I had to do something for her 19th birthday. So I bought her a rainbow chocolate cake, and 3 balloons (3 for I love you). She loved it, of course she would. Hahaha she loves cake and balloons. More so she wasn't expecting any of it. Apparently I am good at surprising people. She came rushing to us, Patch, Sam, Jhens because Pamu went to get her telling her we needed her because of an emergency. So she came and then calmed down when she saw Patch with Sam's Ipad, so she was posing for "photos" so when she walked closer to Patch, Sam, Jhens and I popped out of nowhere singing happy birthday to her which caused Yna to jump backwards in shock and she started to turn red and cry because she didn't think anyone besides Fritz was going to give her something. 

I am just glad I made her day a good one, she was really happy and enjoyed the balloons. She may be 19, but she still is a kid at heart.



Other than that, I have a new wallpaper. -laughs- My classmate Boc. I had left my phone on my desk during NCM this afternoon, so I can go and pay tuition for my sister since she has exams Monday.

I was gone for a good 5-8 minutes. And I came back to Boc's face as my wallpaper. Hahahah. It gave me a fright because I didn't realize that he changed it so I ended up asking if anyone seen my phone, because I was confused. I don't function well with very little sleep. Hahah.

He told me that he thought it was a cute prank because I kept telling him to stop being so serious and loosen up. And it was after I told him I would rather be with a sincere guy than a handsome guy. Don't really know why or how I ended up in that kind of conversation with him, but  have a feeling it has to do with Andrew because I keep telling them all that I feel uneasy around Andrew and it isn't a crush, I just feel that he might be a bad person and just hiding it.

But I informed Boc I am leaving it as my wallpaper for a few days. Hahah. He agreed saying that way my phone has "some class" to it. Yes I guess he may be right. -laughs- I am glad he is my friend. He cheers me up whenever I get quiet.



Today has been full of smiles and memory making. I am glad that I decided to come to school here. So many people have become important to me. They aren't just friends anymore, they are more like a family to me. Tons of support, heart to heart conversations, openness and acceptance about everything. Every flaw, every little thing about each other is beauty in each other's eyes. And whenever one of is down, the others actually stick to that person's side. I am glad to be part of this barkada. 





I know it is Saturday and I am writing about Friday. The next day doesn't start until I wake up. Hahahah. 

Thursday, September 22, 2016

Weekend Plan



Baking SUGAR COOKIES!
Let's see if I can make them colorful. Hahahahah. 

Wednesday, September 21, 2016

5:11 PM - Wednesday Evening



OR duty rotation for a month.
I knew it was coming. I knew it will be for 4 weeks. And yet I didn't know how tiring it truly will be. -laughs-
Only been 3 days in the Operating Room and I have already been in 5 different surgeries! Today I only been in 1, but that lasted hours, just about my whole shift. Hahah 4 plus hours standing and being an instrument nurse. 
Yna and I were the scrub nurses, she kept forgetting she was suture nurse while I kept forgetting I was the instrument nurse. That happened because I am so use to dealing with the needles/sutures, the re-tractors and other things instead of the scissors and clamps. The staff Nurse in charge of the room we used kept laughing because after a few hours I had to move around so I was bouncing from side to side. He thought it was cute and told Yna to move around, but to put hand in the scrub gown to stay sterile. After all of was over, our legs were killing us. Hahaha our instructors both left us because they got hungry and they were so tired so they said "Good luck, you know what to do."
Oh my gosh, I was so scared at first, but thankfully they doctors knew we were still new to knowing what they would need next, but Yna and I caught on pretty quickly! Before we knew it, we knew which clamp and whatever they needed with very little verbal instructions, of course unless they were thinking what they needed.
It was very intense, and the student surgeon, I felt bad for her. She was so nervous because that was her first surgery and she asked me if it was also my first time, and I told her no, but first time being the instrument nurse. -laughs- She was really sweet and apologized for taking so long to close the incision site. We all had a good laugh and said it was fine.

The first surgery I was in, I was of course the scrub suture nurse (my favorite), and it was just a c-section. The staff nurse who was assisting kept joking around asking me questions, which made a chain reaction to the nurses asking questions, and even Ma'am Babor started laughing and said it is my fault that everyone is talking, and to apologize to the Doctor for being loud. Thankfully the Doc wasn't bothered and enjoyed listening, made the time go by faster.
But now, the 3 staff nurses who run around the OR rooms, keep joking around with me. I adore them. One of them is this 50 something year old lady, and she is the sweetest thing ever! She keeps making jokes but then makes sure I understand what is being said because some of the surgeons are from Manila so I end up being problems with understanding because of their accents. 
The other is a head staff nurse, and he keeps me busy with mindless busy work if I am not on a case. -smiles- He figured out I don't like being bored. Thank goodness on that.
And the other one is this old guy(late 50s I think), and he keeps telling me if I am observing a surgery that no students are on, that I am allowed in and to watch up close, just don't touch anything because I am un-sterile. Thanks to him, I was able to witness so many things up close. 
And this one surgeon, he is a Orthopedic Surgeon. And yesterday I muttered how cool it was that he was drilling the metal plate in the ankle, and he asked if I wanted to see something cooler, and then pulled the skin/fat/muscle. to show me the bones underneath and told me which was which, and since I was scrubbed in, he said I could hold the clamp that was holding the fracture bones in place, I am glad my instructor allowed it because that was just cool. 
I really, REALLY enjoy being in the Operating Room as a scrub nurse. -smiles-
So far I love it.
I actually might be a good nurse in the future. 
I cannot give up on myself just yet.

Goal: Be the best damn cute nurse ever.

-laughs-
Sleepy time for this student nurse.

Sunday, September 18, 2016

Can You Feel The Love Tonight?





Started watching Disney again, to feel happy and warm.
I am glad to say I did. One day at a time.
One day I will find my King, hopefully. Hahahah.
Poor Simba for never actually being stronger than Nala.
Always a must to rewatch Disney Classic Movies.
Up next, Sword in the Stone!!!

Friday, September 16, 2016

10 AM - Saturday Morning


Just got home. Ended up spending the night at a classmate's place due to drinking.
Yup, back to drinking. Peer pressure does sometimes work. Hah. Hard to say no if no classes due to intrams. Ended up scaring the guys since I ended up crying while drinking. -laughs- They didn't know what to do, nor did I actually know the reason why I was crying. New drunk side of me I suppose. Or maybe since it was tequila and I rarely drink that. -shrugs- But they let me spend the night, and a few others since it was late and drinking made it worse to go home. Haha.

It was intrams this week, it is over now. I had lots of fun watching everyone compete against each other. My college is second place in Frisbee and 3rd place in women's basketball. I don't know about the others. I missed the last game for baseball so I have to ask Gerald who won. We are either first place or second. Hopefully first place.

My head hurts a bit. Is this what a hangover feels like? I don't like it. I am waiting for my cousin to make breakfast for me.
I might go on a small ran away trip during sem break. Life started to suck again.
Matt and I stopped talking. Don't know why. Maybe because his ex and him started talking again and I got pushed aside...again. We weren't together, nor did I like him more than a friend. But it still peeves me that he stops talking to me when he gets someone, and talks to me when he is single. Like, what the actual fuck. -sighs- Same goes with most of my other friends. Both female and male alike.
I miss being in the states. I miss Sondra. Hah, only a year and a half more. 
I can make it through, hopefully.

2 AM - Saturday Morning


Drunken, semi-drunk...hahahah my head hurts.  Thank goodness for autocorrect. Ahh will regret later. But comfy. Warm. Better than I was an hour ago.
Messy face, empty stomach, blank mind...ad a really slow internet. Beddie bye time. Hahahahagaga.

Wednesday, September 7, 2016

5:19 PM - Wednesday Evening


Okay, so no photos in this post. -laughs-
I been having a lot of fun these past few days. Since last week.
Fiesta where my best friend Sam lives, and now a Fiesta in the place my friend Pamu lives. Hahahah.
Also just finished CHN rotation, and SUCCESSFUL did a full health teaching on Hypertension in Binisayan!!! I usually do broken English, but today, I managed to do it all in Binisaya without help and without flash cards for if I got stuck! I am pretty excited about that. Haha.

Okay, lets start with last week. Friday was the start of Fiesta in Lindaville, originally I was invited to Gerald's girlfriend's place. Elaine really wanted me to go, and always asked every year for me to attend. I always said maybe, but backed out last minute because I didn't know where she lives and no one was willing to go with me there. But Gerald now has a car so he said he'd take me during lunch time. THANKFULLY, I didn't go during lunch, so many people were late and got in trouble. He told Tony to bring me along since we are classmates, and Gerald had to go and help out at the household, Tony didn't wait for me, so I didn't go. Blessing in disguise.  After Gerald got back, he went to my classroom and lectured me about not attending and said no matter what I WILL attend Saturday for lunch at least, because he knows Sam would want me sometime during the day or night at her place, and since they are not friends anymore, I had to have time for both. So I went, it was nice and I had a good time. Then I went home and fell asleep and woke up to Sam calling me nonstop. -laughs- She came and picked me up to have dinner at her place, to which she and I ended up watching movies in the house of hers, while everyone was eating at the Grandma's place, right next door to them, about a split second walk from the back door. Hah. It was so much fun. -smiles-
Then Monday and Tuesday, Jhens, Patch, Pamu, Yna, JC, and Sam kept dragging me everywhere, and I had so much fun during CHN. And today, Pamu exclaimed how we should go to her place today since tomorrow we have classes during the evening time, so only this afternoon we'll be able to make it.
We went. Originally we were suppose to catch a ride with Tony, but he wanted to wait for the C.I's to bring them along, and we didn't want to wait, so we decided to take the bus. Hahah Jhens and I ended up in the back and the others in the front. So much bonding was done at Pamu's. We did karaoke, I ended up singing when the C.I's came, and Ma'am Escobido ended up laughing saying how cute I am when I sing Disney songs, and then how serious I am when I sing normal songs. Sam and I even did "Say My Name". It is our "duet" song. I sing the chorus and she sings the verses. Hahah. The people there were very shocked to have an "American" visit because they thought Pamu was joking that she was close to her American classmate. Hahah, I am just a very lazy person when I don't fully know where the person lives, but tagging along was so much fun. I am 100% glad I went with them. 
Tomorrow is exams, and Friday is exams. I am not stressed. I am tired, but so happy. For once, in a long time, I am not forcing a smile, and I have enjoyed the days that been going on, and I am looking forward to the rest of the week and next week. Next week is Intrams! No classes! And I get to cheer on my classmates while they play sports against the other colleges on campus. I am excited! -smiles-
Gonna take a nap now.

Monday, August 29, 2016

12:41 AM - Tuesday Morning


I know, I most likely posted this song/video before. I cannot help it.
I am a major Thumbelina fan. Besides it is so early in the morning, and my mind is racing, so I decided to listen to some music, and this was the first song that popped up on my cellphone, SO why not share it on here again?
One day.
Anyways, off to try and sleep.



Sunday, August 21, 2016

7:08 PM - Sunday Evening (Home from Humanities Tour)



Totally was worth spending the extra money and spending time with a few friends. Even though I basically went out yesterday, and now my legs feel like they are going to fall off, I had barely any sleep, and if it wasn't for Sam who called me to make sure I'd be up and making lunch and packing my bag, I wouldn't have gotten to school on time. Her parents picked me up since the back gate was locked and no tricycles ran at 6am in my area.

It was so much fun, we went to a Cathedral,again. A different one, we also learned how to make the baskets/trays/boxes native-ly, and how to make old style cloth. IT WAS AMAZING!

Then we went back to the chocolate hills, but Jc went home, since it was in the same place she lives, she left to go home instead. And that caused her mom to tell her to bring Sam and I over for lunch. -laughs- So much for my packed lunch. The teacher agreed, but didn't inform our group so when they were going down the hill after an hour, they freaked out since we weren't on the bus. Hahah it was quite funny, we were at the bottom waiting on THEM! 

We also sung so many different songs on the bus. Our bus was dubbed the "Party Bus" because Sam brought her speaker, Bobot bluetoothed his music to it, and we blasted it. Hahahah, basically the small nursing part of the bus was looked at as crazy because we kept partying.

I had brought the snacks, and tossed them around whenever someone got hungry. Even Sir was surprised how the Nursing students were, we were basically there for each other, someone didn't have lunch, we shared. No water, share pud. Always the "Kind and caring" students. Haha. I bet he just loved us singing so loudly with the blasting music. I think I may have strained my throat from it, but totally worth it.

What is funny, was when we had to go back, because most of the nursing students have patient assessment on Sundays, I begged Sir to bring us to the hospital instead of the school, save our time and energy to make it there before endorsement of the PM shift.
HE ACTUALLY AGREED! So our public bus, since we used the city bus not the school bus, went downtown, and it NEVER goes downtown. Hahah, everyone was so confused. It was so funny seeing them shocked that the bus dropped off so many people in front of the hospital. 


Today was 100% fun, I am tired and worn out. My spirits and emotions may be a bit down, but I still had a lot of fun today. It brightened me up and I kept laughing and enjoying the activities and such.

Can't wait for another trip with everyone. Hoping to get to go to Cebu with everyone. <3








Saturday, August 20, 2016

1:30 AM - Sunday Early Morning

 So, what a day yesterday was! Went out with my Taiwanese friends as well as four Japanese boys! Hahah, that was a major shock to me. The adviser who accompanied us, I don't even know his name, only know is that he is the teacher of the Japanese boys.
We went all over Bohol! Sheesh, and in a couple of hours I will be on another tour for Humanities.

I seriously adore the one Japanese boy though, he was such a sweetie, should have asked for a way to keep in touch or something, they all left to go back right after the trip. But he was really funny, he tried teaching me how to speak Japanese, and called me beautiful and thought I was amazing since I clean up my area after I am done eating, though he could have said that since I should him and the others an easier less messier way to eat mangoes. -laughs- They barely know English.

We went to go see the oldest Catherdral on the island, then where the blood pact was made with some Spanish leader, then we saw Tarsiers, the small monkeys on the island, I should have taken photos of that, but too busy keeping an eye on the girls, then explaining to them why no flash and why they weren't moving. Hahaha.

Then we went to go eat lunch on the floating river boat, it was so much fun. -laughs- Having to explain how the tipping here works, and that any amount is fine even though it was the workers/dancers pay. 

The tiring part was the Chocolate hills. Oh my gosh! Such a steep and high climb. Hadn't climbed to the top of one since 2007! But it was fun, even though I was worried my knee would give out, thankfully it didn't. 

Then we went to Sir's brother's place to have snacks, and it was just so  much fun! The boys and us girls shared the dinning room table and bonded over dried mangoes that one of the boys bought, he forced me to eat it. -laughs- Honestly didn't think we'd get along since they were so distant from us girls, but they were playful and funny. One made us all say "itadakimasu" when we ate the snacks. Haha, and hearing them actually say "Tina-chan" was just too cute. 
Here I thought I was going to regret going, but it was just a lot of fun. -smiles- I didn't laugh and enjoyed a day since who knows when. And to have gotten randomly hugged by the Japanese boys, when we parted ways was really nice. I do wish they were
going to stay longer.

The girls were the ones who actually invited me, they love when I accompany them places, in fact they are joining the Humanities trip today. -laughs- That way the get to see more of the island before they leave next week. I am going to miss them when they leave. -sad face- I already gave them farewell gifts. Hahah, pearl necklaces. They both loved it. -smiles- Though they wish I wouldn't spoil them as much as I do. But it is so much fun for me to buy them things, they smile so happily.

Also, on Friday, I sang in front of the class with Sam. Pamu, Jhens, and Yna for our Soc Sci project. -laughs- Since I was the only one who knew the chorus, Sam actually shoved the mic in my face so it looked like we put in effort.
The song we did made our teacher happy, she is going to now use it in her out reach programs. I told Sam she should do an actual cover to the song since she has such a nice voice. 


Going to rest a bit, got to make lunch and breakfast and take a shower in two hours.
I am so excited to spend another day going around the island with my friends. -smiles- ALWAYS fun.


 I miss him greatly. A few weeks ago, I was removed from school do to a health problem, ended up in the hospital for only one day. My health this year is just crap. Wonder why it is. -laughs-
Going to try posting again.

Anyways, I know he already moved on, and sometimes I feel like I have but my mind always seems to wander right back to thinking of him and how he is. I do hope he isn't stressing too much and his girlfriend is kind to him and they get along well. Even if that girl isn't me anymore, I always wish him the best. I do terribly miss him though.








Saturday, August 6, 2016

10:42 PM - Saturday Evening (Home)





So Friday I went out with Sam, Jenny and Gertrude. Gertrude and Jenny are my Taiwanese buddies for the month.
They are very happy about eating lunch with Sam and I. Hopefully next week I can introduce them to my classmates. Mainly Dindi, since Dindi will be performing for them. They get a performance from the students, selected ones, for the second to the last day they are here. Sam will be playing the guitar and Dindi will be playing the piano. -laughs- Sam isn't happy I told Sir Boloran she knows how to play. But Jenny knows how to play the flute so she will be giving us a small show. There will be others, but Dindi and Sam are the only ones I know.
Then they have to give a speech the next day. They are worried. But I said I'll help them write it. They were happy to have me around. I might actually miss them when they are gone, even though I am only with them for a short time during the week.
Jenny is a shy girl and Gertrude is the outgoing one. -laughs- But the four of us gets along really well.

Other than that Friday I had my midterms. My head was spinning, and I was stressing, but I know I did fine. I got to relax and keep my mind at peace, otherwise I'll go crazy with my NCM classes. Hahaha.
Well that is all I have to say. 

Thursday, August 4, 2016

11:10 AM - Friday Morning (Home)





So yesterday was actually pretty fun. Sam and I went on a little snack trip at the mall after we found out that we didn't have stats class. -laughs- It was nice. I was able to actually eat dinner before 10pm for a change!

During our first class, my group was having fun painting on the canvas I bought, and had painted most of the project. Hahah, they are so cute, I really am glad I have gotten this close with them. Even if they get on my nerves every once in a while.

Yesterday was also the start of me being the student buddy to the Taiwanese girls. They were so sweet, I enjoyed taking them out to Caffeine Cafe. They were very happy to have someone with them during lunch, and to have actually gone out. I thought Sir was joking about the whole me being there for them during lunch and helping them get adjusted to school here. They are only here for a month. But I am glad I am able to make their one hour a day a bit more enjoyable. 
Also been talking to Matt a lot. He stayed up with me a few nights ago when I had to put together a case study on RHD. He was nice about staying up so late and didn't hold it against me. I am glad he has a crush on someone finally. The girl's name is Natasha, and from what he tells me she seems like a nice girl. -smiles- I do hope things keep looking up for him.

As for me, I went on a date last week. But it didn't turn out quite well, so not going to see him. It was so boring, he didn't say anything, and I think he expected me to just jump in bed with him. -shakes head- What is wrong with some people? I am not some chick to just mess with. 

Either way, it is Midterm exams today. I have studied quite a bit, my grades from the first exams were really good! I was really surprised over it. I am not stressing too much. Half of this semester is already over, it is so weird how quickly time is going back once again.

Well...I haven't talked to him since he last messaged me. I do miss him a lot. I won't lie about that. But he is busy, and I know he is, he always puts so much on his plate. Hopefully he'll know by now that I think of him even when we don't talk, and that I hope he is well. As well as him hearing me tell him to not stress and overwork himself. -laughs- 

Well, I am going to start getting my stuff together so I can go meet up with those Taiwanese girls again for lunch.

Wednesday, July 27, 2016

2:16 AM - Thursday Early Morning (Bed)



So, I am feeling better. My mom has been calling me basically every few hours to make sure I am okay. We don't know what was the initial cause of what made me feel so awful. I had to miss duty Tuesday and Wednesday. So now I have two days replacements for duty. And it is only because my mom lectured me to stay home and relax since my body was not doing well.
Much better now, no more vomiting and anything else. So I am going to attend my classes tomorrow and try to hold out all day long. Hah. Hopefully my body won't tire out during the day.
My mom has been overly sweet to me since I called her in pain. Hehe...a mother's love. Got to say, Matt has been a cool guy about me complaining about being in pain and feeling gross these past two days. 
Just glad to be feeling better. Let's hope that I won't have that again.

Monday, July 25, 2016

7:23am -Tuesday Morning (Bed)


Currently feeling like crap. Been awake since 3am vomitting up everything in me.
I really feel crappy. -sighs- i hope i am well soon.

Sunday, July 24, 2016

9:41 AM - Sunday Night (Home)



So, since today was a bit eventful, and so was yesterday, I decided to at least blog about it. Maybe it'll help with keeping me unstressed. -laughs-

I got a free necklace, it is so pretty. Happened after patient assessment, this girl randomly came up to me, gave it to me and walked away. LATER I learned it was my god sister who gave me a really REALLY late birthday gift. -laughs- Her mom called me over before I walked out of the Medical 2 ward to go home, and she talked to me about my mom. Which does explain why she randomly called out to me earlier before I started my Sunday assessments, asking if I was Jenny Jamila's daughter. -laughs- Talk about awkward, it was in front of my classmates too and they were shocked to have someone know me and I didn't know them. I think I should take more care of the people my mom introduces me to, or tells me about. Would make my life more interesting.

Saturday was a Sandugo event where I live. It is a festival that lasts all month I think, and many different events. I didn't have anyone to go to the street party with, no load means no way to contact my friends here if they aren't home. -laughs- But I went to the trade fair that they hold, and I found some very cute chokers. My collection is growing slowly. Patricia also is waiting until she has free time to send me a choker she bought for me in Japan. I miss her, but glad she is unwinding with her sister.

Well, that was all. It was a lot more eventful than how I write it out, but all the same.
Now I should really start that assignment from Soc sci....write a love letter. -face palm- I don't want to, much too hard to keep it short, and whatnot. 

Back to my NCPs, Drug Studies, and Profiles for my patients. Sometimes I am a good student nurse. Hah.