Thursday, November 28, 2013

Happy Thanksgiving!


I am happy to say it's that day! It's Turkey day! -laughs- Gobble gobble. 
I hope everyone is feeling thankful! 
Let's see I have to do two more. -nods-

Things I am thankful for:
27. Being blessed with life - I simply love everything in my life.
28. Love 

What am I most thankful for this year? 
Something I hold very close to my heart. Something very dear to me. It's not just a person, but the feeling this person gives me. The stuff this person does, and what this person is. I'm thankful for all the times he has allowed me in his life despite how our lives get so messed up from talking. for always thinking of my feelings, putting up with my moods, and for always putting a big goofy smile on my face. That he is the only one who can make me blush so badly, to be the one who makes my heart race. That he is him and no one else. I'm thankful for my love towards him. The love I've had for a very long time. 
He knows so much about me, and yet he always wants to know more. The time he takes to make sure I'm in his life, the effort he makes to breaks down my walls to my inner feelings and secrets. That he always ask what I am thinking or how I was feeling. That he worries about my well being. The way he tells me I'm pretty, how perfect I am despite my flaws. How he makes me fears and worries vanish so quickly by telling me he's there and everything is okay. 
I'm thankful he's waiting for me and that I have him in my life, despite screwing up during the very beginning. 
And that he cares deeply enough to not scare me off and take things slowly, so I am not pressured or do things I don't want to do. 
I'm thankful for him. -smiles- 
If you haven't caught on yet. I am in love with him. I love him. I love him. I love him.
I will put my heart on the line for this guy. 
-smiles- Just thought I should tell everyone what I am most thankful for this year.

Until next time, Ciao~ 

Tuesday, November 26, 2013

A Post Before Bed

Decided that I should post before I go to bed.
So yesterday was fairly interesting at work, had two people come back and tried to get in. Thankfully they didn't and hurried away. But of course that was before the cops came by. When the cops did I explained everything. So in reaction to that they put more lights up around the building, now I feel safer at work than I did before.

I forgotten to put a post up yesterday. -shakes head- I am such an on and off blogger it's so silly.
So in a few days it's Thanksgiving! I hope everyone is getting excited over it. -smiles- I have to work that evening, but I'm going to put the most I can during the day time. -nods- Work might be boring, but it has to be done. I'm not the only one working during this Holiday. My other friends who work night time shifts also have to work that day. 

So I'm very tired, but I thought I should put two more things I am thankful for.

Things I'm thankful for:

25. Patience - I am sure without this lovely trait I would have already done a lot I most likely would regret later in life. I am very thankful towards this.

26. Surprises - No, not the ones you expect or something, the little ones at put a big goofy smile on your face and make you feel warm and fuzzy. Those kinds, I am thankful to them.


Well, until next time, Ciao~ 

Sunday, November 24, 2013

Random post

Out of boredom I decided to sing a part of two different songs. Just because I have nothing better to do.





Until later, Ciao

One thing after another

I just realized something. When one bad thing happens, it tends to snow ball into a lot of other bad things.
I wonder why that is. I got home this morning, only to find out my cat isn't doing too well. -sighs- If she doesn't get well with the next week or so we're going to put her down. I really don't want to. Even though she ignores me most of the time she tends to cuddle up when I need something/one to hug when I unhappy.

My mom had visited me this morning at work, she didn't mention it to me at all. In fact I think she was purposely not trying to tell me. I really don't want to give her up, or put her down. I hope she gets well soon.

At this very moment I am at work, and the moment my dad leaves, and Pat, the officer right before me, left I started my patrol and when I got back inside the building, my knee started acting up again. Now it's in pain. I can't say it's from work, or I was injured on the job because it's pain from before. Thank goodness my brace was in my backpack, if it wasn't I think I would have to have called in. 

This weekend just doesn't seem to like me. -sighs- It's times like this where I can use someone to cry to, or whine about nonsense as they would try to make me smile. I guess all I can do is suck it up and move on. Hopefully these bad days won't last much longer, I don't know how much more I can take all at once.

Since I am posting twice in the same day (go me) I won't be updating what I am thankful for.

Well, I'm just going to go and watch the raindrops hit the ground and figure out why I haven't been able to get much sleep these past few days. -sad face- I hope all you guys out there are doing well.

Until next time, Ciao~

Work, work, work

My job, same as last year, stress free, simple, easy, etc., yet I still can't seem to find the time to blog correctly like before. If only Jen was around. 

I am able to get online during my work hours, but that's because of my wonderful work's hotspot, though it has a limited amount of data I could use, as well as the battery life sucks major balls. But it's better than nothing, though I am usually on my phone unless I am going to have a nice long conversation with someone, then I'd use my laptop, during that time I forget to update this blog.

Work is dull, and I realized recently I'm going to be alone on Thanksgiving. Not only on that day, but as well as my 21st birthday AND Christmas. Oh the holidays alone I'm just not use to. But at least this year is almost over right?

-smiles- Though this hasn't been the best year, it also wasn't the worst.

At work I have time to think, time to organize my scattered thoughts, sometimes I can make sense of what is running through my head, other times I get even more confused. 

Lately, I've been thinking of my sister Sara. How in the past I was always second in everyone's life, how I still feel like I'm second. How everything I want is always just in reach but somehow gets away. And just that thought alone makes me want to give up on so many things. People say I am always so happy, how I am so great at putting a smile on their face. How can I blanket state out loud I'm unhappy? I just want to be hugged and told it'll be okay, that I won't be alone anymore. That I have nothing to worry about.
Then I rethink that, why should someone else be responsible for making me happy? It's my choice. My own decision about how I feel at this moment in life. True, that tucking feeling in my heart and the dropping stomach won't disappear because I put a brave face on. But at least I am being responsible for my own feelings. Making me happy isn't someone else's job, in fact it isn't a job. I don't know what it is, but it's something only I, and I alone can do. Though having someone there would make it easier.

I have also listened to Peter, Paul and Mary. Not the best singers out there, but it's a group my father use to listen to when I was just a kid. And the memories came flooding back, and put a smile on my face.

Things I'm thankful for:
23. Pain - Unlike most people, I thankful for it. It allows me to know I'm alive and eventually things will get better.
24. Tomorrow - It brings me hope of a better day.

Until next time, Ciao~

Friday, November 22, 2013

Once again...

I haven't posted in a while. I just been, distracted greatly.

I started working once again, and I have been very tired. Though it's not all bad, I would pass the time talking to someone amazing, though he doesn't know it.

Anyways, it's that time of year again in the USA. Thanksgiving is just around the corner. Sadly I won't be spending it with my family, in fact I'm going to be spending it alone in a big building by myself. My family though will be attending a get together full of fun people. I am going to miss the dancing competition. It's a group dance, where you join in with a group. A few of the girls and I were working on a routine, but I suppose it's for the best since my knee is still acting up from time to time.
Is it saddening that I'll be alone on Thanksgiving? No, I don't think so. I wouldn't know, I just have to look at it as another day passing by. Though I will also be alone on Christmas and on New Years. -weak laugh- I guess that means I'll be spending my year alone, and to myself. 

I have been doing a lot of thinking and opening up lately to one person. Things I wouldn't really say to people, even the ones I consider my bestest of best friends. The things one rather keep hidden. To feel that exposed to someone is very scary for me.I just hope he knows that I trust him. 

I cried earlier this evening. Something I haven't done in over a year. I was listening to music, and then my tears started to fall. Did I mean to cry? Did I want to? No. I didn't. I don't like crying. But I am a cry baby. I cry over everything, but I always come out with a smile. 

Most people usually say hat they are mostly Thankful for, I guess in light of the season I shall list 22 things I am thankful for. (The date of today) I'll do so until Thanksgiving, meaning I shall be writing more~

Things I'm thankful for:

1. Being alive - Yes I am very thankful for that, I like being alive.
2. My family - They aren't always the perfect family, but they are the best for me. They put up with my quirks and still love me for me.
3. My healthy - Health in my family isn't that great, most of my family has many health problems, I am lucky enough to have none as of yet, and hoping I won't later on.
4. My ability to smile - No matter what happens in life, the good, the bad, the fact I can smile means I will be okay.
5. The internet - No, not because of a pass time, but because it has allowed me to meet amazing people that if the internet wasn't around I would have never known.
6. My voice - The ability to talk is something important to me. Because I am scared of speaking my mind, the option of being able to is very comforting.
7. My best friends - No matter what I do they're always there. They allow me to cry my eyes out to them, allow me to be a baby when I can no longer hold on, and they'll bring me back to reality with a smile.
8. My heart - Without it I wouldn't be alive.
9. Emotions - Yes, sometimes people claim they wish they didn't have any; I can't imagine life without all the emotions. They make us human, make us feel and know what we want.
10. Being able to forgive - Forgiveness is something most people are unable to do. I am happy to know I am able to forgive. 
11. Ashe - Though he may not know it, he is a person I can talk to easily, someone who isn't just a dear friend, but someone who is so close to my heart it suffocates me.
12. My mom - She is my solid rock in my life. She helps me stand tall and basically in the end, she's my truest best friend.
13. Art - Art is something I love. 
14. Music - Allows me to feel and be able to connect to when there is no one to talk to.
15. Gaia online - (laughs) Yes, a website. Without this site I think I'd be bored to tears, and this site also brought such an amazing person in my life.
16. Sight - Even though I wear glasses, at least I can still see.
17. This blog - Allows me to express what is on my mind through writing.
18. My past teachers - I still keep in touch with some. The ones who made such a big difference in my life.
19. Abdon - I don't talk to him anymore, but he was my best friend in Middle School. And he has helped me in the biggest way possible. He helped me when I was down in high school, despite he and I fought a lot.
20. Theater - I just adore theater.
21. People who show kindness to others - Whenever I see someone put a smile on someone else's face by doing the smallest thing, it warms my heart.
22. Dreams - Thankful for dreams, it gives me something to hope and wish for.

That's all for now. Until next time, Ciao~

Saturday, October 26, 2013

Potato Date with Ashe


So today was really nice. -smiles- Had a small potato date online with someone really special to me.
That's right, a potato date! -laughs- I loved it. It was amazing. It wasn't something that was planned, Ashe was just hungry and he asked me if I had stuff to make potatoes like the way he does, and of course I do. I am a cook so basic things I always have in the kitchen. 
So he and I baked out potatoes, and ate them at the same time. I find this gesture very sweet.
Why? Because not many people would care.
Over all today was the one of the best days I had in such a long time. -smiles-

Was going to take a picture of it, but I had started eating most of the potatoes I made, so this is the left overs once I realized I could blog about this. -giggles-

Until next time,Ciao~


Saturday, October 19, 2013

Galahad a.k.a Brian

Okay, I wouldn't blog about my friend Brian, or as I call him Galahad. 
But I...he is just so sweet at the moment. -smiles- He is like my big brother, sometimes I fight with him, other times we laugh and make jokes. But I think this tops everything he has ever done for me.

So a bit of background on this person and how he came into my life:
We were in a keyboard class together, and my friend Kyli and I were using a private practice room, because I was in a higher level than others and was her tutor, then Brian and his friend came into the room because they knew Kyli. After that we became a small group that practiced together using on piano. -laughs- It was easier since Brian had more experience than I did. 
That was in 10th grade.
Now years later, he and I stayed close friends, talking almost everyday, keeping each other updated. 
We'd still fight, but everyone does.

So, what did he do that has made me feel happy? 
Well, a few months ago I found this cute lace choker online, and never got around to buying it.
And I don't like wasting money, and I'd always ask my parents if it's worth buying something.
So I completely forgotten about this cute choker. -laughs- 
But since today I gotten a card from my lovely friend Ally, it started making me look back into moon items. 
And I had posted on facebook how I was going to see about getting that choker this time. 
Brian commented on wanting to see it and asked how would I want it, making conversation, and next thing I know he was asking for my address. -cries- I think that is the NICEST thing he has ever done. His reply to why he would buy me it was, "Because I can, you're my little sister and I haven't bought you anything to show you I care about you."
Lies.
I know he cares about me because whenever I am down he'll always try and cheer me up. He's like a true big brother. The only people who ever buys me something is my friends Sondra, Nadia and Nikki. And that's because we'd exchange gifts. But to get a gift just because the person wanted to buy it for me...this is the first time. -smiles- I know I'm going to cherish this because he doesn't buy stuff for people often, and he doesn't usually have extra money. 
So why did I let him, well because I knew if I didn't give him my address myself, he would go out of his way to ask my friends who know it what it was. He doesn't like taking no for an answer when he wants to be nice. So I had no choice, more so the gift from last year never got to me, so he wanted to make it up.

Anyways, until next time, Ciao~

Saturday, October 12, 2013

Q and A time

So I wanted to thank everyone who has been contacting me through my email. I don't check it often, maybe I should, since a few of you actually asked me a few question.
And for those who don't know, my email for this blog is - babynyu@gmail.com

Q. What is your blog suppose to be able?
a. Well, it's not mainly about anything. It's just want I feel like posting.
 I think of it as an online journal.

Q. What do you do you do for a living?
a. As of right now, I am a part-time security officer. 

Q. Do you wear make-up?
a. Normally I do not. On very rare days I would. 
But that is limited to pink lipstick.
When I do wear make-up, usually a friend would put it on me.

Q.  Why do you have more than one blog?
a. Simple. I tend to get bored and abandon my blog.
But I eventually come back but want to start anew.

Q. Why are your other blogs just stories?
a. Well, that's because I use to write often.
I would use the blogs to get my story out there.
Though I did have a blog, it is now deleted, that was similar to this one.
I created it in middle school, and a few of my old friends asked me to take it down.

Q. What is your favorite item?
a. That is a hard question. I have quite a few items that I don't think I can part with.
So I guess I'll just tell you.
1. My stuffed panda that was given to me by my friend Kyle.
2. A soul gem from an anime, given to me by my friend Nadia.
3. My wooden heart with Ashe's name and mine engraved in it. Which I made.
4. My great-grandma's choker necklace.

Q. Why do you like books?
a. Seriously? You'd seriously as me this? I don't like books. 
I love them. They bring me all over the place and I don't even have to pay much.
Most people look down on books, because they haven't found something to read 
that would interest them. 

Q. You seem to travel often. Why?
a. I travel for many reason. Main one is schooling.
I go to school overseas in the Philippines.
The other traveling I do, I do with my family because it's a fun pass time. 
You should try it more.

If you guys have any more questions you can either comment them, or you can email me.
I'll try my best to check my email often, and when I receive a few I'll do another Q and A post.

Well, until next time, Ciao~

L I Q U E U R's card

So recently I decided to write to this girl on Gaia. She is a sweetie. She even blocks out my address when she shows off her letters. -smiles- No one can ask for an even better pen pal. She and I rarely talk on Gaia, but that has to do with my lack of people skills. But she always encouraged me to talk to her whenever I can.
So seeing she wanted to get some actual mail from her peers, I jumped at the chance, and a short time later, I received this lovely card. I love her handwriting. She is the CB's Cinderella, and I am going to try and be the CB's Thumbelina.
I can't wait to send her a Thumbelina theme card. 




Saturday, October 5, 2013

My Different, yet messy, Nail Art

So these are my more, nicer nail art designs. Ones I had actually took pictures of. 
I enjoy painting people's nails for fun.  -smiles- I hope that one day I'll be able to do much more.

My Apple butt nails

My Piano nails

My Mom's Party Nails

My Fire Nails

My Japanese Symbol Nails. (Current nail design)

Thursday, October 3, 2013

Mothers


Many people don't have such a good relationship with their parents. I must say, I am not one of those people. But out of both of my parents I am closer to my mom than my dad. She and I don't always see eye to eye on a lot of things. But when it comes down to fighting, we try and look through each other's eyes. She isn't the normal kind of mother I've seen around where I live.

My mom wouldn't stop me from doing something I want to do. She'll tell me what she thinks about it, and how it could affect me negatively, and most people would stop right there and start telling me off about how my mom is trying to "control" my life. But I don't see it that way. It's her job, more so when I ask her opinion, to tell me what she truly thinks about the subject. I'm her daughter and I've special to her. But will she stop me if I truly wanted to do something against her wishes? No. She wouldn't. She'd be a bit disappointed but she'll support me full on whatever I wanted.

When it comes to having to pick between hanging out with friends, or being told I have to spend time with my family, my mom welcomes my friends to come along as family members. She welcomes all my friends as if they were part of the family. None of my dear friends dislikes her. They love her dearly for they noticed she welcomes new ideas, and money isn't an object to her towards showing people a good time.

If there's one thing I love is her will to spend money. She doesn't waste it. She just doesn't fear having to spend a lot on money on something important to her. And if I truly want something, yet can't afford it, she'll pay for it with questions if I really want it.

I would say most mothers need to be like mine, but I am sure if they were most kids would grow up spoiled. My sisters and I were lucky that we were able to grow up in two different countries, so we were able to see both sides of life. The comfy living all the way to being dirt poor. Having my mom work to the bone not only for us, but for her family overseas since she was a little girl tells me how strong she is both emotionally and physically. She doesn't like the idea of not being able to do something.
She and I both have the same views on life, which most see as a childish dreams, but that's how we are. We look towards the light and keep hoping for the best.

I am happy that the one female in my life I can call a life long best friend is my very own mother.
Until next tim, Ciao~

Monday, September 30, 2013

A House of Cards



So I decided this morning, while I was waiting to wake my sister to get ready for school, to make a house of cards. This was the best I can do. -laughs- I miss doing this with my cousins back in the Philippines. Then playing "Monkey Monkey" with them. It's a card game. Heh, I think I became attached to my cousins. 

So today I found out my friend Sondra was hurt by a guy she never thought would hurt her. -sighs- I wish he knew that she does love him, the same way he does. I do wish she wouldn't listen to her mom so much, he could have been the one, more so if both of them felt such love. 
He hurt her because he couldn't handle talking to her without having feelings more than a friend. But I think he could have been a bit nicer to her about his leaving. Not treat her like an idiot. Seriously. No need to be childish over stuff. 

So an update on Uncle Ed, don't know how he is doing. I couldn't see him much today. When I went there, he was sleeping and seem fine, and no one told me anything, so after a few minutes I hugged Atie Shirley and got back to doing my errands.

My cousin, Neil, came over. We pick her up on her day off. So she won't be stuck at her live in job. And since she doesn't have a car, nor does she know how to drive, she would have to use the bus, but she isn't sure about how to get from their place to ours just yet. So we picked her up. She is always a sweet thing to be around. She is like a little dollie. I love going out to clothes stores and picking outfits she could try on. Too bad she had  to go back to work in the evening. But it was nice while she was here.

Until next time, Ciao~

Sunday, September 29, 2013

Pressure...stress.

I might be going on a slight rant, but I'm glad not many people actually read this. -huffy laugh-
Why do people always expect so much of me? So what if I don't live up to how they see me being. I'm tired of having to please people. I am tired of it. Always having to smile and nod along. Who are they to tell me what to say, what to do? 
People wonder why I just run away. Why I turn back to those who understand me, who actually deals with me. 
My friend Sondra is the perfect example for someone I can always turn to. 
I've talked to her about anything. She never judges, never turns away because she doesn't like what I say. She accepts my decision. Does she think it's the right one? Most likely not. But does she know how I feel, yes. She understands, I'm still young. I love what, who, I love. I can't help it. 
But why should others, have to put me down for my choices? Have I ever judged someone? No. Have I always supported their decisions even if I didn't think it was right? Yes, of course I voiced my opinion, but I always support what my friends want to do. 
Why can't people do that for me? Am I that horrible of a person? Have I done people wrong? I understand if I've purposely went out of my way to screw you over. But I never try to hurt people. I always love making people smile. But when it's something I truly want to do, or feel I have to do, why does it always bite me back? Hm, maybe I'm truly a horrible person and I didn't even know it. -sighs- 
I am at the point where I should just say "fuck it, I'm going to be a bitch to everyone." But that's not like me at all. I can't help but be nice and kind to people. 
Why can't people just be that way to me?

Well until next time, Ciao~

And it just keeps getting....


Every day when I come back from the hospital, I feel worse and worse. -sigh- I can't believe he is slowly fading away from us. He is going  to be in my heart forever, I don't even know what kind of girl I'd be if Uncle Ed wasn't in my life. As long as I can remember, he was always there, laughing, joking around...acting as if the world stopped spinning whenever I laughed or smiled.
Always treating me as if I was the world. 
He was always fair when it came to my sister Sara's and my fights. He would listen to both sides, unlike my parents, who would accuse the one they saw doing the damage. But at the same time, he would make us work it out for our own reasons.
When I think back on all the times I saw him on the weekends with his wife Shirley. They never let us down.
I wish I knew what to do to help ease their pain.
 The only time I ever felt this down was when my grandpa passed away back in 2006. And that time was a really rough time for me. I believe in that year I was a really horrible child to my mom. 
Anyways, I just can't believe that he is doing worse and worse. I am scared now to go to the hospital in fear that he might pass away while I am in the room. I do not like crying in front of people. He has seen me cry a lot, and I don't want him to know I cry the moment he dies. I hope, I pray, his child will come and see him before he passes away. I don't know how much longer he'll be able to hold on.

~

Other news, I been talking to some old friends again. Old as in from middle school, and a few from elementary school, but the ones from elementary school are my classmates from overseas in the Philippines. 
I never noticed how much we've grown without one another. Being in a group conversation with my old group of middle school friend, made me realize how much of a loser I was in middle school. -laughs- 
I always looked for the best in people, and I still do. 
I use to post their poems, and draw them horrible pictures; thinking I was some amazing artist.
Even my best friend, Abdon, he changed greatly as well. But I think that's towards losing his mother to cancer. That is something that will change a person. 
It's great to know, that I wasn't the only one who was scared of getting together and talking. We all had our fears and worries that we wouldn't get along anymore. There was so much tension between everyone after Abdon and my friend Chrystyna broke up. And when I started liking him, it didn't help the situation at the time. 
But the moment we were talking, laughing about how things use to be, we realized that no matter how much time passed we'd always be the reject group from middle school. It comforts me knowing that we can change, and become totally different people, and yet still look at one another with those wild hopeful eyes, thinking the world has just started for us. -smiles- I can't wait to talk to everyone again.
More so with Chrystyna. She and I were like sisters. Not only did we have the same name, we did everything together. When I wanted to run away from home, she always let me in her place. Without her mother knowing. -laughs- When there was something going on, she and I would run to the place together. 
Entering talent shows together. Singing loudly during lunch time at school. Sitting at the little tables to stay away from people who didn't enjoy being around us.
She is the only person I know I stayed in contact with from elementary school here in the USA. Even though, she and I had a major fall out in 8th grade, over how she dumped Abdon and the way she started acting. 
Looking back, she was just growing up. And so was I. We don't hold it against each other, we smile back on those days, saying that we wouldn't change a thing about what happened. 

Until next time, Ciao~

Saturday, September 28, 2013

Horrible News


This picture is of my mom and Uncle Ed, he is not related to me, he is the person who is in the hospital.(read past posts)

So this evening, my mother came home from Shirley's place, she had gone to the hospital without me, and she updated me on what happened.
Apparently, today he has been revived twice, his heart rate is very low, and goes up and down often. Since he been in the hospital he was shocked about twenty times. -sighs- This is not good news. His kidneys are starting to decline more and more, and the nurse said she'd be amazed if Ed survives the night. I hope he does. He is a great guy. I wish I had taken a picture with him. All the pictures I have of him, he is with one of my other sisters, my mom or my dad. I am usually the one taking the pictures.
It breaks my heart knowing he can't breath on his own, he is has became very delusional the past few days. I hope he lasts a bit longer, his children haven't been down here to see him yet. 
The last thing he should be able to see is his loving wife and the kids he had from his first marriage. -sad face- I hope he'll get the chance to.

Now, that I am sad, I shall just watch some stuff on netflix.
Until next time, Ciao~ 

Friday, September 27, 2013

Funny Faces

So, lately, I been feeling down. Which isn't normal for me. So why the sudden bad feelings? I am not too sure. Maybe it's my dreams I been having this whole week. -laughs- It wasn't that great of a dream, left me with an empty feeling and a sinking stomach.

Anyways, so what do I do? I make funny faces to cheer me up. 
People do all sort of things to cheer themselves up. So what are a few of mine? 
There's a lot.



To beginning, I love taking my camera and snapping away at my face, and attempt to make some faces. 
Of course it doesn't always work the way I want. I am not too gifted in making funny faces. These are just about the best I can do. -sighs- I wish I knew how to make some better ones.

Another thing that cheers me up greatly, is writing. I love writing. Short stories are the best. You can create a world of your own, and make anything happen. You're the creature.

Drawing helps as well. But what do I draw? Hm, I have been thinking that myself. I have a list of people asking for chibis, eventually my facebook friend's list will be full of my artwork. -laughs- I might get to it soon.

Styling my hair. It's a girly habit of mine. But I love putting my hair in different styles. It's fun and the focus I use distracts me from whatever is worrying me.
Along with nail art. Which I haven't done in about a month. My nails are NAKED! -laughs- It'll stay that way until I find some newer polish I like. 

Well, that's all I have to say for now.
Until next time, Ciao~

Thursday, September 26, 2013

Time for an update.

So I have had a lot of time to blog, but haven't been in the actual mood. I just been thinking of things, mainly of some people. People who are important to me. One of those people, I am scared for. He is in the hospital, and at this moment, we aren't sure if he will be okay or not.
I'm praying he will be.

Anyways, two days ago, I been teaching my younger sister and her friends the "cup song". They wanted to know so they can perform it during this thing they were having at Barnes and Nobles. It was a school gathering, and everyone wore pajamas. They performed it today, with me as their instructor. It was fun. I remember learning how to do the thing from Zoom. I had completely forgotten all about it, until I watched D.J Tanner and Stephanie Tanner on Full House doing it and then Michelle wanting to know. -laughs- Oh the memories. 
The fun part was teaching the girls. Since I was able to just watch a video of that girl from Pitch Perfect sing it, I was able to do it. Thank goodness for good memory! The girls didn't catch on at first. One was so use to doing it with her hands, she kept forgetting to pick up the cup. -giggles- It was just so cute watching them learn and then the fact I got to do it with them made me really happy.

Monday, my sister Sara, came over to check up on my cat. I had called her that morning telling her my worry about her. (Sorry about what I will be saying if you can't stand gross like stuff) My cat has round worm, and is taking medicine for it. But Monday morning, while she went to the bathroom, I noticed a long worm, as I get the paper towel to put it out of her, it slowly went back in her butt. Freaking out, I had called my sister, and she told me that's find, the worm will die from the medication. 
Though, she knows how our parents are, she decided to come by as soon as she got off work, and she brought along two dewormers, and showed me how to give it to my cat, along with some more medicine for my cat. -smiles- I love how she goes out of the way to help me care for my cat, that way our parents won't complain about her, and I can keep her around a bit longer.

On that note, last week this important guy went to the hospital. His name is Ed. I am not sure about his age, but he is pretty old. His wife Shirley is one of my mom's close friends. I heard the news over the weekend, I'm not fully sure how long he has been in there, but I know it was at least two or more days before Saturday. 
Why do I worry greatly about him? Well, it has to do with the fact, he's like a second father to me, and sometimes a grandpa. He and his wife has always been there for Sara and I. Always taking us out whenever our parents were busy. They would invite us to holidays at their place, and they would remember to give us gifts. -smiles- Small but very meaningful. Both of them mean a lot to me. 
As far as I know, he is stable, but he isn't doing too well. I had already lost my great uncle back at the end of July, and another close family friend earlier this month. The thought of losing another person dear to me makes me feel awful. 
I'll just keep him in my prayers in my heart and hope for the best.
If not, Shirley is already getting her mental mind ready for the worse. Let's just hope it doesn't happen anytime soon.

Until next time Ciao~

Saturday, September 21, 2013

My Chibis

So today,I cleaned the apartment, cooked and then I figured I'd give drawing chibis on my tablet a try, since I was having a little bit of trouble with drawing yesterday. All I have to say is...Success. -laughs- Three of my friends asked me to draw them, and I wanted to draw a Gaian for practice. 

Quinn is my friend from High school, and she loves putting on nail polish, and doing nail art. She and I usually discussed about what different styles there were, and encourage one another to continue. She's adorable for a person. Even more so as a chibi.

Brittany is my friend from Gaia. -giggles- She and I bonded over a short story I wrote for her, eventually ending with me adding her to Facebook.  She is a fun nerdy girl. AND she actually owns a batman cape. She's a superhero in real life, never asking for much, and always willing to help people.

Deminarii, she is a gaian whom I noticed and she helped me once. 

Lacy...I haven't really gotten the pleasure of meeting, or knowing that well. She dated my best guy friend Matt. I don't know what happened between them, or if they are still together. But either way, she seems like an amazing girl who tries to see the best in people. She is an artist and down to earth. She loves dying her hair, and she's amazing at it. In my eyes, she's an elf. And she accepts it.  -smiles-

Well, this is what I've been up to today. Hopefully everyone has been having a good day.
Until next time, Ciao~

Friday, September 20, 2013

Big Brother Kyle


Munchies the panda. This stuffed animal is something of mine I plan on treasuring for a good long time. It's already been 6 years with this panda. I would have to say, if I had to talk to someone, but fear of judgement, I can always turn to him.

Munchies was given to me by my friend, and I wish, older brother Kyle. A guy who looked like a bully and will rip your head right off, gave me such a sweet gift. Of course after he got me in trouble with my mother. -laughs- He originally gave me a

different panda, but a person in my high school, borrowed it and then later claimed it to be his son. How I hated the guy. A few days later, on my birthday, Kyle gave me this one. I am happy. Even though he didn't have to, Kyle stuck up for me, let me actually be a little sister to him. And never turned me away no matter what I did, or what I said.

Sure, he didn't always liked what I had to say. But we understood that we both had a mouth, thanks to being Filipino, and was able to handle each other with care.

In high school, he had wanted to date me, but didn't know how I felt. Of course, I liked him. Most girls did, but for the fact he was a musician and had great hair. But I loved how he was when it was just me. He took the extra time to understand my emotions and how I do things.

Even though we had liked each other in the past. I am glad things didn't go the way they could have. If they did, I might have lost such a great friend. Even though, I did kind of lose him over the years out of high school. He still comes around on Facebook and asks how I am doing. But that is how life is. I'm just glad for the little things, the moments he gave me as a "little sister". The feeling of comfort from just the panda.

I couldn't ask for a better pretend older brother. Well, until next time, Ciao~


Intuos Tablet



It finally arrived. My new item. After a week from when I ordered it. Strange that I was never sent a tracking number so I can track it as it is being shipped. But either way, it got here safe and sound. Perfect timing as well. Considering I've been feeling like crap all day, still do but at least now I don't have to worry about my money being gone.

I was drawing with it most of the day today, still getting use to it. Not something I am use to yet, hopefully with practice, I'll be able to do cuter artwork.


Thursday, September 19, 2013

Throwback



So today I was doing laundry and cleaning the apartment, and I came across this amazing photo of me and my sisters, along with my first cat. Sara is with our cat Bright-Eyes, and I am holding Mary-Rose's pacifier.  Whom I was always scared of holding. -laughs- So what is going on, I think is was at least a month after my little sister was born, and my mom was still in the "picture taking mode" most parents get when their baby is born, anyways there's this brown spot on my dress, I think it is a patch spot my mom did to fix it, or it could be a stain.

But I think this picture perfectly shows how my sister Sara and I are different since we were kids. -laughs- I sit all lady like, and she is more like a boy. Now though, she has decided to come and join me on manners and being fancy, but this reminds me how I went from lady like, to slob back to a nicely dress young lady. 
This was about 10 years ago, how time flies by.

Until next time, Ciao~

Ranma 1/2 opening

So, yesterday, I sung this song to my friend again. And I did sing it before, post link, and I decided that, even though I am too shy to post songs, I enjoy singing this opening too much not to post this one. -smiles- I think I'll count this as half a blog post this time. 
Ciao until next time~

Wednesday, September 18, 2013

Good Morning!

















I've been awake all night long again. Can't say I don't look good without sleep. -laughs- I been thinking so much about the past. All kinds of relationships ended, so many people I lost touch with. Yesterday, I ended up talking to an old friend of mine. I've known him since middle school, and considering I've moved around so much, it's amazing I was able to keep in touch with him. Granted we use to be closer during my high school years, now I regret not putting in the time to talk, or see him despite the distance. I missed his mother dying, his graduation, his older brother's graduation (not that I care much about him.), even his sister's birthdays. -sighs- Every moment I use to share with him, it disappeared during my 11th grade. 

Jen, a girl who I was able to stay friends with for a year out of high school, even moving overseas, and coming back, she and I use to skype all the time, even sung with each other. In fact, she was the reason why this one blog stayed being so long, she brought the best out in me. -laughs- She and I would fantasize about what our weddings would be like, me moving overseas in Denmark with her after we finished schooling. Even talked about boys. But somehow she and I drifted apart. It's sad to think that being so close with someone, it could just quickly disappear over time, despite it being a short time since I last talked to her, it's been a longer time since we shared moments with one another.

Though some friendships last. Like my darling Sondra. She and I been friends all of high school, until now. -smiles- She knows my secrets, and accepts me and my flaws. I still joke around, and she'll tell me her problems, even though I was only able to see her once since I gotten back, but still. She and I always talks and makes time for each other online.

My best friends Nadia and Nicole, they always find a way to keep in touch with me. My email gets spammed if my cell phone gets disconnected, when I am overseas. They always keep me in the loop no matter the distance. I am hoping that in the winter time, I can go up to see them again. -smiles- It'll be their Christmas Gift if I go up. I know they'd be thrilled to see me once more.

All in all, last night was an interesting night for me. Thinking of the important people in my life, the ones who came, and the ones who have left. But all have a special spot. -smiles- 
Well, until next time, Ciao! 

Tuesday, September 17, 2013

S.C.M-R

It's been a while since my last post on here. -laughs- I'm a failure as a blogger, but I'm here to turn things around. -cough-Friend Tristian is making me update it-cough-
So what is "S.C.M-R"? Well that my sisters' and mine first initial. Sara, Christina, Mary-Rose. 
I don't think I ever once posted a picture of the three of us, or of them at all. Well let's see what I can say about them:
Sara, (the one in the red shirt) is my older sister, she's 22 next year in March she will be 23 years old. -smiles- She is a brat. A spoiled one, with anger management problems. -laughs- She easily throws a fit, but pretty harmless unless she goes into one of her episodes. She was diagnosed with psychosis this year, and now on medication. I am glad, because she's been less stressed and haven't picked fights with people. Nor has she tried and killed herself. She's the only person who I can do stupid stuff with and not worry about what people think, from tying a scooter to a bike with a rope to having shopping cart races in the store. She knows all my secrets and worries. It might seem like we get along, but it wasn't like that all the time. She was a horrible older sister. We wouldn't talk, and all we'd do was fight each other the moment we saw one another. It was a horrible time. She won every fight, and just bullied me, she  knows it was because I can't stand the thought of actually hurting someone on purpose. We started to develop a sister bond when she became 18 years old. And I must say, despite the fighting and hatred from when we were younger, I think that she was just lovely both then and now. So many funny memories because of her. I'm very happy she survived her ovarian cancer.
Now, the little sister,(the one in the middle being squished) is Mary-Rose. She's 10 years and 2 days younger than me. -laughs- She was born December 10th, and I was born December 8th. She is like the average preteen, being 11 she thinks sometimes she should be able to do anything, but at the same time she listens because she knows I don't play games with her if it means she'll end up a disrespectful child. She's just like Sara, the way she looks and acts. Because she was born near my birthday, my parents put me in charge of watching her and making sure she is brought up properly. Back then, being 10 years old, I thought that was unfair, but now....I still think it's unfair. -laughs- I was robbed of my teens because of her. Not able to go out and do stuff with friends because my parents would work and I had to watch after my little sister. But I must say, despite it not being fair. I love her so darn much. And I am very thankful I had the chance to take care of my sister. If I didn't who knows what kind of person I'd be like. 

So, now I have properly introduced my lovely sisters. I hope you all have a wonderful day.
Until next time, ciao. 



Monday, August 19, 2013

Been a while

So it has actually been quite some time since I actually blogged about something in my life, I feel like I am slightly losing the touch of wanting to do it everyday. I'm going to start to get back into it. Well, my friend Jen, my blogging buddy, has stopped blogging. I wish she didn't, but she didn't feel the need to, I guess that happens to all. But I try to come back every now and again. 

Last post was made this year, because my friend wanted to read a new story I wrote. So this was the quickest way for him to read it on his phone. Good news, he enjoyed it. Even better news, I do plan on rewriting one of my older stories, one I haven't posted online. Why I haven't yet? Well lets see, it was written back in my sophomore year in high school. I was still starting out writing, and that was my first assignment in my creative writing class. Needless to say, it wasn't that good. But I'm sure, it's better than most can come up with at the top of their head. But because I have managed to develop a style of writing of my own, I do plan on revisiting that piece and working on it. Which is good news for some of my fellow readers that end up emailing me about story updates, and new ones. I usually just email it out, and sometimes post shorter ones to this blog. Depending on how long, I suppose it'll depend on if I'll post it. 

What's new with my life? Well, I started reusing my pass-time website, Gaiaonline.com, because I have nothing better to do until I go back overseas and start schooling. I've had up and downs since the beginning of the year, but the year is almost over right? I will make it throw, let's just hope these next months won't be a pain for me.

As of lately, I have been getting more and more panic attacks. I don't know why, and most have asked me about it. It's not a common thing with me, well it is starting to become one. I guess I'm slowly changing? Let's hope not. I'm pretty awesome  the way I am, yes? Yes. Let's keep me as me.

-smiles- Well it's late, well early, and I have to get my kid sister up so she could get ready for school. 
Until next time, Ciao. 

Tuesday, July 9, 2013

Romance Short Story.


The door closed, leaving only silence in the room. Alphonse banged his clutched fist on the wall. He didn’t know what to do; his parents weren’t giving him an option. 
“Ugh,” he whispered to himself. “What am I going to do?”
Giving a sigh, Alphonse started to walk around the room. His parents wanted him to agree to a peace marriage, but he didn’t want anything to do with it. But if he stayed, then he would have no choice but to marry a girl he never meet. If he left he didn’t have a place to go. Alphonse didn’t want to stay here, he knew that much.
“I got to go somewhere,” he finally decided.
Alphonse stormed out of the room and rushed down the hallway heading down to the stairwell. He wasn’t going to give a second thought to any of it. He didn’t want to back down; he knew he was going to change his mind if he thought about it anymore than he did.  

After wandering for days, Alphonse was tired and worn out; he didn’t know where he was or where he was heading. His hands touched a tree, trying to support his weight before he collapsed.
“What am I doing?” he asked himself as he leaned on the tree.
“Well I don’t know what you are doing,” a voice answered the question. “But I do know that you shouldn’t be here.”
Alphonse jumped at the voice, bringing a little life back to him. He turned slightly around to get a view of who was speaking.
Standing there was a girl, holding a basket of fruits and flowers. Her hair tied back into a French braid with her bangs falling to the sides in a mess. Her eyes narrowed at the sight of him.
“Who are you?” Alphonse asked. His hand was shaking as he pointed at her.
“Me?” she asked raising her brows. “What does that matter? Are you okay?” She moved closer to Alphonse, causing him to back away. Only to find out his legs gave out and he fell to the ground.
The girl rushed to him, only to have Alphonse push her hands away.
“I’m fine. Just was unsteady for a moment,” he said pushing himself from the girl.
“My name is Celia,” she answered. “I live near here. I can help-“
“I don’t need your help,” he hissed, finally standing back up. Alphonse stared down at the crouched down on the ground.
Celia stared up at him and shook her head.
“Fine,” she said getting up herself. “If that’s how you feel, okay. I won’t bother you.”
Alphonse stared at the girl as she hurried away.
Grunting, he started forward after she was gone to make sure no one would bother him again. That was the last thing he wanted.
At least he limped into a village full of busy people. They hurried along the houses getting from one point to another, giving a ‘hi’ and a ‘hello’ to friends passing by.
“Great,” he said rolling his eyes. “A small town. Wonder if they have an inn I can stay at.”
Alphonse slowly moved around the tiny village, reading the signs on doors, looking for a place to stay.
After a while, he stumbled upon a small inn in the middle of the village. Shrugging his shoulders he pushed the door open.
“Hello, welcome to Lancourt Inn, the finest Inn in all of Lancourt!” a voice by the door happily chirped.
Alphonse turned to look at the greeter. He noticed the hair style and smirked. “This is where you live?”
Celia jolted up and stared at Alphonse.
“What are you doing here?” she asked.
“I need a place to stay.”
“Go somewhere else.”
“Rude,” Alphonse muttered.
An elderly lady came over and patted Celia on the arm. “What’s going on?”
“Nothing grandma,” Celia said softly. “Go back to your chair.”
The elderly lady stared at Alphonse as he started to turn around.
“Are you looking for a place to stay, Lad?” she asked.
He pointed at Celia, “she said that I have to find another place to stay.”
“Celia!” the woman’s voice turned harsh. She turned back to Alphonse, “we have plenty of room. If you cannot pay, you can work it off.” She smiled sweetly. “Just can’t me gran-gran or grandma.” She walked away and pulled out a key and walked back handing it to him. “Celia can show you the room.”
“Thanks,” he smiled.
Celia rolled her eyes. “This way.”
“Celia, your manners,” Grandma called after them.

After showing Alphonse his room, Celia walked to her room and flopped on the bed.
“He was rude earlier…why does he have to stay here?” she asked as she rolled on her side hugging her pillow. “No worry, he just can’t get in the way of my work.

A few hours later, Celia smiled and fixed her bangs, brushing them out of her eyes. “Time to start the clean up!” she said happily as she pulled an apron on.
She hurried down the staircase and into the dining area of the inn. It was her job to make sure the place was kept clean and the guests happy.
“Are you good?” “Need anything else?” she asked over and over to people walking in and out, having their meals as she cleaned and swiftly got anything that was needed.
“I’m not good,” Alphonse said loudly catching Celia’s attention.
“Oh?” she said heading to him.
Alphonse was sitting alone at a table with his arms crossed at his chest.
“You clean up nicely,” she said.
“I’m hungry.”
“What would you like to eat?” she asked.
“Whatever is good.”
Sighing she shook her head, “I don’t know your name, but do you have anything in mind on what you’d like to eat. You can look at the menu if you like,” she said gesturing at the paper lying on the bare table.
“What’s the special?”
“For you bread and water.”
“Manners, Celia,” he smirked.
She sighed and placed a glass of water on the table.
“I’ll get you something delicious,” she said. Then added a smile and walked off.
When Celia was far enough away she scoffed and muttered the word “brat”.
The other workers at the Inn took a quick liking to Alphonse. He was pleasing to the eyes, and had manners when needed. They gave him what he wanted and giggled off happily to gossip about him to each other. Celia kept staring at him. She didn’t dislike him, but from the way he treated her in their first meeting she was a little hostile towards him. She knew that she shouldn’t be since he was a guest and a traveler. More so Grandma told her to welcome strangers with open arms.
So after receiving the meal for Alphonse, she skirted around the people and the tables and chairs making her way to him. She placed the dish on the table along with a fork, spoon and knife.
“Dig in!” she said happily. “It’s the best in town.”
Celia pulled a chair to the table and sat down as Alphonse started eating. She looked down at her lap not knowing if she should speak or not.
“What are you doing?” he asked her.
Blushing Celia shook her head. “Nothing. Nothing at all,” she said with a nervous laugh.
As she played with her fingers, she took a deep breath and exhaled.
“Sorry about earlier. That was rude of me, I shouldn’t have done that,” she said quickly.
“It’s fine.”
“You know…you never told me your name,” she said nervously. “Mind telling me?”
“Why?”
“I mean, I’d like to call you by something.”
“It doesn’t matter what you call me.”
“But…”
Alphonse finished off the meal and held out his glass. He leaned on the table, his face against his fist, a smile (or smirk, Celia couldn’t tell the difference) on his face. His blue eyes shining.
“Water.”
“Eh?” Celia squeaked.
“I am thirsty. Get me more water.”
Sighing she took the glass and went to the kitchen.
As she pushed the doors opened she shook her head, her hair swaying along her movement.
“Here, refill it please Leon,” she asked wearily.
“What’s wrong Hon?” he asked her as he took the glass and poured more water in it.
“The new guest.”
“Ah, the Lad that has captured the entire maiden’s hearts in this Inn?”
Celia nodded.
“I wouldn’t have thought you were that kind of lass, Celia,” Leon said handing her the now filled glass.
“I don’t like him. But Gran told me he is to work with me while he stays here. Who knows how long that’ll be. So I want to get along with him,” she said looking down into the water.
“You’ll be just fine.”
“Sure. Thanks by the way,” she said smiling as she left the kitchen to return to Alphonse to discuss the arrangement of his stay.

“No way.”
“Why not?” Celia asked.
“I don’t work.”
“Well why not?
“I never work.”
Sighing, Celia put her hands to her head. She was starting to get a headache talking to Alphonse.
“Look, I don’t know your name. I don’t know why you are here, and what happened to you…but Gran asked me to watch over you as you worked. So please just try and do something?” she pleaded to him.
“Fine,” he said as he took a last sip of water. Grabbing his coat, Alphonse headed for the door.
“Hey! Where are you going?” Celia hollered after him.
Since he didn’t answer her call, she hurried after him. She threw off her apron and hurried out the door.
“Hey! Wait!” she called as her pace sped up.
Alphonse walked on faster as he heard her voice.
“Can you slow down, please?” she asked him.
“What do you want? Following me? Are you a stalker?” Alphonse asked her.
Taken by surprised, Celia’s eyes filled with tears. She didn’t mean anything by it; she just wanted to make sure he wasn’t going to be in any kind of harm.
“No…” she mustered up the voice to answer him. “I just don’t think it’s safe if you are out at night.”
Alphonse stared at her in disbelief. “Really?”
“Yes! You just stormed off and you just got here, and you seemed liked you pushed yourself too far and you need a few days rest to get back to normal. It’ll be bad if you just wandered off,” she explained.
“Don’t worry about me.”
“But-“
“Don’t bother.”
Alphonse strolled off and turned a corner, leaving Celia standing in the street alone.
Celia didn’t like being left alone in the dark streets. She hugged her arms and hurried after Alphonse to make sure he was going to be okay.

Celia didn’t seem to find him as she walked the night streets. She started to worry a little as she didn’t want to stay out too late into the night since Gran would have a fit if she stayed out. Pulling on her hair, she looked around.
“Just a little further, then I’ll head back,” she whispered to keep her nerve.
She hurried down the path she was already on and didn’t see anyone who seemed like Alphonse, so she turned around. It was already late. Her heart pounded, she didn’t really want to go back to the Inn without him. She was sure Gran wouldn’t be happy if she made someone upset and he never paid for anything. She knew she couldn’t go home empty handed.
Sighing, Celia headed down an alley way continuing her search for the man she just met, and didn’t know the name to.

It took her hours for wandering the streets before she finally gave up. Going home empty handed, and late would get her into a lot of trouble, but she couldn’t help it. She headed back to the Inn, in hopes the Gran was already in bed and her friend was manning the front desk.
As she opened the door, she realized that Gran was still up. Fuming from worry.
“What in the world are you doing?” she squeaked.
“Nothing Gran.”
“Storming out when you are supposed to be working, and staying out for hours. At night nonetheless!” Gran was mad at what happened. “What has gotten into you?”
“Nothing,” she whispered. Her body ached from walking fast for hours, she didn’t want to tell Gran that they got ripped off by the man from earlier when she was already mad. She decided it’ll be best to tell her in the morning when her mood was better.
“You are in trouble young lady.”
“I know.”
“What do you have to say for yourself?”
Celia shook her head. She didn’t know what to say. So she bit her tongue.
“Go clean up the dining room, and kitchen. Your work will be doubled tomorrow,” Gran said as she hopped off to the staircase and headed to bed. “Don’t make me keep a closer eye on you, sweetie. I just want to keep you safe. Good night,” she smiled and disappeared.
Grabbing a rag, Celia started to pick up the dishware that was left out for her. Her area was a mess. She knew no one was going to cover her. It’s against the rules at working here. Everyone had to carry their own weight. Celia knew she was stupid to try and befriend the man.
She gave a sigh.
“Doesn’t matter, it’ll all pass,” she sang as she piled the dishes in the kitchen and started to wash them. Her clothes were splashed with the water and she made a face, stopping her singing those words. “Great…now it’s all wet.”
She leaned on the counter and looked out the window. The stars shone brightly above and it helped her smile.
“No biggie, I can handle this,” she said smiling as she pulled her sleeves up higher and started picking up the pace.
She was done with the washing quicker than she thought, and she bounced off to clean up her serving area. She couldn’t sleep unless it was clean. Cleanliness was the thing Gran took pride in, she couldn’t ignore it.
Celia wiped the tables, and swept  the floors clean. A few hours later, she felt really tired. She yawned and stretched her arms in the air.
“Good work for last minute,” she said proudly. Looking around, she nodded at the work she just did. “Gran will be happy to see I took care of everything when she awakes.” She took the items she used and put them back where they belong.
Since no one else was up, Celia looked around making sure everything was locked and secure before sitting in the big chair in the waiting room. Her heart was heavy at the thought she, made someone mad at the Inn and took advantage of Gran and the rest of them. Sighing she leaned back, before she knew it, Celia fell fast asleep.

 The next morning, Gran found Celia sleeping on the chair, curled up trying to keep warm. Gran gave a sigh, and went to get a blanket and covered her up.
Alphonse walked down the staircase, stretching and taking in the fresh morning air. Looking around he spotted Gran at the desk, and asked her what he could do to help out.
Gran smiled and told him he can just sweep the dining area, but to ask the people to keep their voices down since a newly born slacker is sleeping in the waiting area.
Not knowing what she meant, Alphonse nodded and asked where the broom was kept. After being told, he walked to the dining area to retrieve the broom and start the work that was asked of him. On his way there, he noticed Celia sleeping on the chair peacefully.
“Slacker,” he smirked. He started working. A few other people that were working were waiting for the guests to wake up.
He overheard them whispering.
“I heard Gran yelling at her last night for coming in late.”
“No way! Celia isn’t like that. Do you think she is doing something bad?”
“I bet, I mean look at her, she always wander off during the day time breaks. Doesn’t surprise me one bit she was out last night.”
“I think she does it every night and Gran just never caught her.”
“Maybe!”
“Now she’ll be getting in more trouble than before.”
Alphonse looked over at the gossiping girls.
“So you know Celia well?” he asked them.
“Oh, yes. Been working with her for many years now.”
“Working with her doesn’t mean you know her.”
“I know her better than you do.”
Alphonse chuckled.
“What you got a thing for her or something?”
“Not at all, I wouldn’t ever have a thing for her,” he said coldly as he started to sweep. He didn’t care about Celia, or anyone in the village. He didn’t want anyone to think otherwise.
“Well, nice to know,” Celia’s voice replied behind him.
Alphonse looked over his shoulder the girl.
“The truth is the truth.”
“Doesn’t matter,” she said softly. Celia turned to the girls that were bad mouthing her, “just so you know, I had some business to take care of unlike you. So either shut your yap and get to work, or you can walk right out that door.” Celia pointed to the front door of the Inn as she spoke.
“Hmph.” The girls hurried off to start their jobs.
Celia took a deep breath and smiled at him.
“Good morning,” she said.
He nodded.
The two of them started their work as guests from that night started filing into the area.
From time to time Alphonse glanced over at Celia as she worked. He started wondering what she was doing out so late that night. He was sure she would have headed home after he left her in the streets.
“What were you doing last night?” he finally asked her.
Celia jumped at the question nearly dropping the dishes.
“Nothing,” she stammered.
“Oh?”
“Yeah.”
She hurried of into the kitchen to put the dishes into the sink.
“Hon, your face is burning red, you got a fever?” Leon asked as Celia pressed her hands on the counter.
“No. Just got a little flustered is all,” she answered catching her breath and steadying her heartbeat.  “I’ll feel better in a second.”
Leon walked over to her, and put his ladle down. He placed his hand on her shoulder. “You okay? I heard them girls making lies about you a bit ago. Anything to do with that?” he asked her.
 Celia shook her head. The people talking bad about her didn’t bother her at all. She knew what she was doing wasn’t bad, but she also knew staying out late and being a female was bad if people knew about it. Rumors would circulate and then Gran would have to deal with all the bad reviews about her Inn because of her. Sighing, she turned to Leon.
“It’s nothing. Just felt light headed is all,” she lied to him.
“Okay. Best stay out of trouble, Hon,” he advice her. 
Celia nodded. She knows better.
She walked back out at the dining area, and scanned the room. The breakfast rush was about over, and that meant that they would have a few hours of free time.
“Hey,” she called out to Alphonse. “After the people leave to do what they do around here, it’s done until noon. That’s when we do lunch. It’s a break so you don’t have to stay here…but you do have to come back.”
He nodded.
After cleaning up the last of the mess left by the people, Celia smiled at the work well done.
“Hey, thanks,” she said to Alphonse.
“Hm?”
Alphonse leaned on the broom.
“Nevermind.”
Alphonse shook his head; a small smile appeared but disappeared as he talked.
“You should learn to say what’s on your mind.”
“Oh?” Celia raised a brow. “You apparently don’t know anything about my life.”
“It’s not good to hold things in.”
“Not good to open up either.”
“Celia!” Gran’s voice broke in.
Celia turned to Gran, who was rushing into the dining area.
“What’s wrong?”
“I need you to go to the next village and ask for some more supplies.”
“Again?”
“Yes,” Gran said in a firm voice.
“Why? I went only last week. We should have had enough supplies to last us a little longer than this,” Celia complained.
“Just please go and do it. Don’t waste time. Go, now!” Gran said and disappeared in a rush.
“Sheesh,” Celia muttered as she took off her apron.
Alphonse looked at her.

After hours of walking, Celia took a rest. She hated having to travel to the other village to ask for help. She never understood why Gran always seemed to be running out of supplies. Sitting on a log, she pulled her bag to her lap.
“Better take my lunch now,” she said with a sad voice.
As she pulled out some bread, jam and fruits, she heard rustling nearby. She tried to pay no attention to it as she broke off a piece of bread to eat. But as the sound was getting closer and closer, she couldn’t help but get up and throw a rock in the direction of the noise.
“Ouch! What the heck,” the voice said.
Celia covered her mouth. She knew that voice.
Alphonse emerged out of the bushes, rubbing his head. His face wasn’t friendly at all. Scaring Celia she threw her hands in front of her and started laughing.
“I didn’t know it was you! I swear,” she said through her laughter.
“I know that.”
Alphonse rubbed the spot that the rock had apparently hit.
“What are you doing here?”
He didn’t answer the question.
“Oh no! You’re going to have your way with me, and then kill me,” she said. “Please don’t.”
“Be quiet,” he said in what almost seemed like a sigh. “I came to make sure no harm came to you.”
“You mean you were worried?”
“Not really, but a lady shouldn’t be venturing long distances alone.”
“You are secretly a nice guy?”
Alphonse stared at her.
“Okay I get it,” she said with a laugh. Secretly Celia was happy to see him. She didn’t really like to travel alone, more so at this time. “Did you eat lunch yet?” she asked as she sat back down on the log.
“Yes.”
“Oh,” she said as she finished a little more of her food.
Alphonse just stood there leaning on the tree.
After a few minutes of Celia sitting there resting, she finally stood up and smiled. They both started forward to get to the next village.
“Hey,” Alphonse said, breaking the silence after a few hours of walking. “How long does it take to get to the next village?”
Celia shrugged. “Usually if I don’t take break other than sleeping then it’ll take me 2 days to day there. But depending on how many times we stop to rest depends on how long it’ll take,” she explained.
“Oh,” he said drifting back into silence.
She stared at the ground, trying to step on every dried up leaf. She loved hearing the sound of it crumbling under her step.
The two of them walked in silence for a few more hours before taking a break by a bush of berries. Celia was braiding her hair to keep it from getting in her face and Alphonse was standing nearby looking back from where they came from.
“Alphonse.”
“Huh?” she said turning her head to him.
“My name.”
“Oh, that’s a nice name,” she said smiling. “Thanks for telling me.”
He grunted and shifted his body weight.
“Hey, we can make camp now or later,” she said looking at the sky.
“Later, we should head forward a little bit. Too early.”
She nodded. A few more hours wouldn’t hurt; the sun was still high in the sky.
They both continued forward.

The sun was starting to sink under the horizon, so Celia and Alphonse were making a camp fire. Alphonse was sitting near the fire as Celia was handing him some bread and dried fruit.
“Here,” she said. “It’ll keep you full.”
He took and ate it slowly.
She looked at him from over the fire.
“Hey, Alphonse, care to tell me what you are doing?”
“Hm?”
“I mean, when I first saw you….were you in trouble? Are you in trouble?” she asked with a worried face.
Alphonse broke into laughter.
Celia couldn’t help but blush. She hadn’t heard him laugh. Watching him wipe a tear away, and smile at her and laugh, she felt her heart skip a beat.
“I’ll take that as a no,” she said embarrassed.
“I am not in trouble, but thanks for worrying about me.”
She nodded.
“I just didn’t want to be at home. Things came up where I had to go and make a new change,” he explained.
“Oh well, hopefully it’s all for the best,” she said happily.
He nodded, “let’s hope.”
Soon enough the two of them started laughing and making jokes together. Alphonse was feeling much better as he talked the night away with Celia, he calmed down and allowed to tell her a little about his life, but not much as he listened and asked her questions about her own.
Laughing, Celia brushed her bangs out of her face.
“And that’s how I ended up with Gran,” she said with a sad smile.
“I’m sorry about that, but it seems like you’re happy with your life.”
“Of course, Gran is amazing. Ever since I came to that village, she welcomed me with opened arms and told me that I can have everything I wanted, that I’d have to work for what mattered to me. Over all….she never treated me like I wanted. She helped me grow.”
“That’s good.”
Celia nodded. “I owe her so much...but I don’t know what is going on anymore.”
“What do you mean?”
“I’m not even sure anymore.”
They both laughed.
“You don’t make any sense Celia,” Alphonse said smiling.
“Neither do you. I guess that’s why we get along so well Alphonse.”
“Mhm, I think so too.”
Celia fell into silence. Alphonse followed.
After a few hours of star gazing, Celia fell asleep, leaving Alphonse awake by himself.
“I hope it’s for the best,” he whispered to himself.

As the sun greeted them, those two were already on the road, spending the rest of the time walking and having small talk to each other, as they follow the path way to the next village.

The next morning, they reached the village; Celia happily hurried forward as Alphonse kept a close eye on her from behind. He gave a smile, happy to see her rush forward to get things done.
After a few hours, Celia and Alphonse were sitting at a small outside café.
“Thanks for coming out here with me,” Celia said sipping some tea.
“I was happy to,” Alphonse admitted.
“You know, you didn’t turn out to be the kind of person I thought you’d be,” she said amused.
“I figured as much.”
Smiling Celia looked down at the supplies she had to bring back to Gran. She wasn’t really sure what the supplies was for, but she knew that Gran needed it, and it should last a while.
Having a good time, the two of them wandered the little village for a while longer before heading back to their own village. On the way back they became good friends, and Gran was happy to see her supplies have arrived safely along with Celia being safe. Thanking Alphonse for helping out she set them to work right away.

A few days passed, weeks, and months passed as they both were working at the Inn together, happily enjoying the time they were spending.
Celia was signing guests out as a group of people stopped in front of the Inn, and shoved people out of the way.
“Hey,” Celia said stepping out behind the desk. “You need to wait behind the people already here, please.”
“I’m looking for someone,” said a heavy voice from a guy in armor.
“Well can you please wait?”
“No,” he roared.
The tone shook Celia’s nerves, causing her to quickly apologize to the other guests for this mishap.
Gran came down the steps of the stairs and asked who it was. Celia rushed over to her and explained what happened. Gran’s eyes narrowed. Something she couldn’t stand was rudeness within her own Inn, from the guests or the workers.
“I would like you guys to take your leave now,” Gran ordered.
“And if I refused?”
“I said out!” she shrieked.
 The people laughed.
“Not until you tell me where I can find someone,” the man said.
“No,” Gran refused.
“I’m looking for Alphonse,” the guy stated.
Celia’s eyes popped opened.
“Alphonse?” she asked slowly making sure she understood correctly.
“Yes, do you know him?” the guy asked stepping closer to Celia.
“No, not at all,” she said lying for the first time.
“Hm…” the guy turned to her companions. “I guess that they are either hiding him, or we were given wrong information.”
Grunting the group of people turned and left.
“Celia, get back to work,” Gran said to her. Celia hurried back behind the desk and started to help the guests again.
Alphonse walked down the stairs scratching his head. He had just woken up, and the noise from down stairs woke him up.
“What’s going on?” he asked with a yawn.
“Nothing,” Celia said quickly before Gran heard.
They continued on with the day as if nothing happened.

As the night fell over them, Celia grew nervous as she didn’t know why people wanted Alphonse. She found herself glancing over at him as he worked until Gran walked in and told them that’s it for the day.
Alphonse walked over to Celia and tapped her on the shoulder with a smile.
“Hey there,” he said startling her.
“Oh!” she said smiling nervously. “What’s up?” she asked placing her apron on the table.
“Want to go for a walk?”
Celia looked at him. “Right now?”
“Yes.”
“It’s night time Alphonse.”
“So?”
Celia nodded. She would like to take a walk at night, but Gran wouldn’t let her in case of danger. Hopefully she wouldn’t mind if she went with Alphonse. “Sure,” she said finally.
The two of them hurried out of the Inn and down the road passing by the few people left wandering the village.
They started joking around as they sat under the stars and just told each other some stories about what they did as kids; each finding embarrassing moments to point out for fun. Celia was happy to be around him.
“Say, Alphonse,” she said as she laid down on the grass.
“Hm?”
“Some guys came over today,” she said slowly. “And they were looking for you.”
“What did they look like?” he voice became harsh.
“Well, one was this big buff guy with a deep voice…” she said. “Why were they looking for you?” She rolled on her side.
“It’s nothing. Just some old friends.”
“Oh,” she said ending it. She didn’t believe him.
A few hours later Celia fell asleep, and Alphonse picked her up and he took them both back to the Inn. He was greeted with Gran as he walked in.
“Where have you been?” she asked.
“We were nearby, just took a short walk and gazed at the stars,” he told her.
“Your look,” Gran said. “You plan on leaving?”
Alphonse put Celia down and covered her with a blanket.
“Yes, thank you for all your help Gran,” he said. “Please don’t worry about me.”
Gran nodded and handed him a bag.
“Some supplies to help you on the road,” she smiled and walked out.
Days passed as Alphonse wandered around, and he eventually stopped at a small village where people were happily gossiping about the news of a warlord taking the land of a poor village that was a few days away from here. His ears perked at the news. He walked by a group of villagers and asked them to tell him what they knew. As he was told, he felt his heart drop.  It was Lancourt. The last village he stayed at. Clutching, his fist his knuckles turned white.
“Damn,” he whispered as he hurried out of the village.
He didn’t know where he should go, home or to the lord that was on a rampage from the disappearance of the groom to his daughter. Either way the fate would be the same: Marriage. But he first had to make sure the village was going to be okay. He begged to borrow a horse from a couple at the end of the village, upon agreeing to bring it back in a few days, Alphonse rode off into the woods towards the lord.

Two days later, Alphonse arrived at the castle of the lord he was suppose to be living at. Taking a deep breath, he rode on in.
The guards stayed down as Alphonse tied the horse out front and walked in with a pardon from a man out front.
“We’ve been expecting you Young Prince,” the man said.
Alphonse brushed it off. He didn’t care for his title at all.
They walked to the court room. Standing there was the lord, and the princess he would be married off to.
“How do you do Alphonse,” the lord said. A sneaky smile appeared on his face. “You broke the treaty of your land and mine, and look what it brought. A poor fate to the little village that open its arms for you.”
Alphonse stared.
“But, now that you are here, I will call my men out and leave them alone,” he said.
“That would be very kind of you Sir,” Alphonse said taking a short bow.
“If you go through with the marriage.”
These words pinned Alphonse in the heart. He didn’t want to get married. He had someone in mind he wanted to be with.
“If you refuse, the village and the villagers will be gone in a few hours,” the lord smiled. “What will you choose?”
“I happily accept your offer,” Alphonse said.
“Grand, prepare the banquet!”
Alphonse was led out of the along with the princess.
“I am happy to finally meet you, Alphonse,” she said sweetly. “I’ve been dreaming of the day we’ll be wed.”
He nodded. He didn’t want to speak to her. But he had to be nice so he held out his hand for hers. The princess giggled and happily took it.
“My name is Yoni,” she said.
“Nice name, you already know my name,” he smiled to her.
“Of course.”
Yoni smiled back at him.
“Soon we will be married.”

Celia grabbed a piece of bread and swallowed it quickly down.
“Sweetie,” Gran said patting her on the back. “You shouldn’t be mad.”
“I shouldn’t?” she screeched. “I fell for him!” She covered her face with her hands. “He was promised to someone else. What is wrong with him?”
“Maybe he liked you too.”
“Gran! If he liked me then he should have left.”
“Celia, you know better than anyone people do things for their own reasons. He could just be protecting you.”
“I don’t need protecting.”
Gran looked at her and shook her head. “Your parents would be upset hearing the way you talk. They didn’t die for you to be spoiled.”
“I know Gran,” she softly said. She was acting like a child. She shouldn’t be. Tomorrow was the day Alphonse and his bride would be married, and this village was to attend the wedding.
“We should prepare our gift Child.”
Gran took Celia’s hand and led her out of the room.
They worked on making a cake that the newly wedded couple would enjoy.

The next morning, Gran took out a sweet dress for Celia to wear. After a short fight about Gran not attending, Celia put the dress on and carried the cake to the center of the village where they would be awaiting the rest of the wedding.
As soon as Alphonse and Yoni arrived everyone started whispering, and welcoming the couple on their big day. Nodding, Alphonse greeted everyone who approached them.
His eyes fell on Celia, and he quickly looked away. He didn’t want to meet her gaze.
“Congratulations Alphonse,” Celia called loudly over to him. She walked closer to give her respects. “This cake if from Gran and I, please enjoy it.” She handed over the cake and walked away, glancing over her shoulder at Alphonse. Giving a small smile she finally understood why he left and why he was to get married. He was protecting this little village from harm. “Like hell I accept that,” she said to herself. But looking at the people being happy she smiled, “oh well. I should be happy for him.”
The couple waved and bowed thanking the village for their blessing.
“With this union, your village will no longer be in harm’s way,” Princess Yoni announced.
“Please feel free to enjoy yourselves at this celebration,” Prince Alphonse said.
Celia looked at them and smiled. I guess this is how it is to be. She hurried to her friend from the Inn and they started dancing to the music. She wasn’t going to be down on this day. She was going to be happy for him, happy for the Princess, and happy that the village will be safe.

Later on, she wearily walked into the Inn, and Gran was standing near the window. “Gran?” she asked as she walked to her. “What’s wrong?”
“Celia, you should have stopped Alphonse. He didn’t want to marry her. He wanted you,” Gran said.
“No,” Celia smiled. “If I did no good would have come from it. I was hoping he’ll look my way and then make everything stop, but he didn’t. I know I’m important to him, we’re important to him. He wanted to save us from any pain from the lord and his army, so he did what he had to do.” A tear ran down her face. “I’m happy to have known Alphonse,” she admitted.
Gran took Celia into her arms and hushed the child.
Alphonse and Yoni went back to the castle, and they sat in the room.
Yoni took her hair out and gave a sigh.
“You didn’t want this marriage did you?”
Alphonse didn’t answer.
“You love someone else?”
He remained silent.
“Don’t worry; we won’t have to do anything. If you want you can see her, I’ll talk to father.”
“Why?”
“Because you put up with me even though you didn’t. You smiled for me without me asking you too. So I am not going to ruin your life if you show me kindness without wanting to.”
Yoni walked out of the room.
Alphonse was left sitting on the bed. He didn’t know what he should do.
As Yoni returned she smiled. “You’re a free man. Father even said he’ll leave the village alone as long as you become a knight and fight for his army.”
“I’m a prince not a knight.”
“Yes, but we know your background. Take it or leave it. If you leave it then you are stuck with me,” Yoni said.
“So you don’t want me?”
“I want you…but that’s not what you want. Despite always getting what I want, I’m a nice person,” she said laughing. “It’s your choose. I’m going to sleep in my other chamber.” She left Alphonse in the room alone.

Leaving early morning, Alphonse hurried out of the castle and back to the village where Celia was working. He stared at the window and watched her work around the Inn. He pushed the door open and walked to Celia.
“Hey,” he said.
Celia turned to him. Her eyes widened and then narrowed as she saw him. She sharply turned away from him.
“I’m here for my job.”
“We don’t need you.”
“I’m a guest and I don’t have money to stay.”
“Well then you can’t stay.”
Alphonse smiled.
“I thought that you welcome travelers of all kind, at least that’s what Gran said.”
“Go back to your wife.”
“I don’t have one.”
Gran walked and smiling and hit Celia in the head with a rolled up paper.
“You better start right away, Alphonse,” Gran said. “Well get to it.”
Alphonse hurried and got his broom and started sweeping away.
Celia couldn’t help but smile.
“I’m going to work unless I’m called to the castle. I’m now a knight,” he said as they worked. “With a long time off.”
“That’s nice.”
Celia threw a towel at him.
“Then you better make sure you have a room here,” she smiled at him.
They both laughed and started working together again.