07.07.25 morning clinic

 

Why am I posting a lot here? Because I need an outlet, and this has and forever been my venting spot unless I was telling him about my day. But since...space is needed right now...I have turned to here. 

ANYWAYS. I hate this morning. Started out slow and boring. Had a really rough patient that the lead tech had to come in and help me out and resulting in Charrise coming in and holding down the child while the father yelled at me while the kid looked at me with tears and pleading eyes. Ended up not seeing them because we couldn't finish the exam but the little girl ran and hugged me because she was scared and she was sobbing into me while the father kept yelling. As soon as they left Charrise came in and gave me a tight hug because she saw I was holding my breath the whole time, telling me she is sorry I had to be the tech for that patient. And as she hugged me I broke down. Tears just flooded out for the girl...for me. For everything. I didn't see any patient afterwards for morning clinic. They shut me room with Charrise checking in on me to make sure I was okay. 

It's now lunch time and I am in my car in the plaza across the street crying again. I just have to push through afternoon clinic.