Almost Christmas

First Christmas without my family. It's so weird. Just last year we were planning how the 4 trees I usually have set up will look, and how we'd put the lights outside. Usually done on 12.10(my brother's birthday) even if it meant us all staying up late and my dad putting our tree topper on the tree in the living room, just for my mom to come home to a house filled for Christmas. I miss getting lists of what, need and like from everyone and go gift shopping. And hiding my mom's Christmas gift(the same gift she gets yearly from my dad) and us wondering who was the lucky one to get a gift from my mom. Hah. She is a one gift type person once I started taking over Christmas. 

This time...I have none of that. It hasn't been a bad season. But a different one. I haven't put anything up until today. Early this morning. Have been having a hard time adjusting to no family. Was thinking I left all my Christmas stuff down south, and bought very little decor for the tree because I just had nothing in mind this year. And couldn't find tree topper that was like my childhood(bought one online last year and my brother is using it) I am proud of my now I made as the tree topper. And felt better finding my squishmellow ornaments from Shelby that she gave me a few years back as a random Christmas gift. 

I truly hope everyone is doing well for the Holiday season. And if you aren't, you are allowed to reach out. To any of you that read this blog. You aren't alone. I know the season tends to weigh heavy on some and heavier on others. But it is also the season to open our hearts and arms to those in need. Just 4 more days until Christmas.