Holding on and Letting go

Watched "In Your Dreams" last night, and been listening to this song on repeat. Once I hyper fixate on something hard for me to let it go. 

Anyways,

I been quiet recently. My mind has been a seesaw between it's okay and it's not. 

As the month is coming to an end next week, I can honestly say, I loved the Spring of 2025. I will cherish those moments deep within my heart. I miss him. I do. But he deserves the world and love. I truly hope he finds that with someone just amazing who completes him. 

I may not continue the whole "what I'm thankful for countdown" and my posts may be spotty here and there, nothing really major as to why. It's just haven't had time. Been just having me time, gaming with people more now(Horror games are my go to type of games) as well as having lots of girl days. 

The major thing I am thankful for is that he did reach out to me earlier this year and we were able to reconnect, even if it was just for a couple of months. It healed me so much and brought life back to me that I didn't know I was missing. Whether or not he was meant to stay in my life or not that is up to the universe. But knowing he is alive and somewhere on this planet literally calms me down. Disclaimer even if he isn't who he says he is and is someone else, I don't care this person is someone I love. I love him and will forever cherish him no matter what.