So Cold

Ice. So cold. Yesterday morning on my way to work from my apartment the grass and trees were covered in ice. I had to break into my car since I couldn't break the ice on the doors and handles. I felt like I was going to break my door handles, thankfully my trunk opened without too much hassle allowing me to climb through to turn on my heater to help melt the ice. -laughs- It definitely was a new experience. I am a sunshine girl, lived on the beach basically my whole life. Yes I have experienced snow and ice before during family Christmas vacations. This is the first time having to deal with this on my own without my family. Slide once while driving to get hot chocolate to warm my frozen fingers. 

I've been extremely tired these past few days. Yesterday Shivani and I grabbed lunch since we had a slightly longer lunch time. Randi sadly couldn't join us since she was scribing. But I cannot wait for Saturday to come. The three of us will be having a girl's outing to a big book warehouse in South Carolina, a total of 3-ish hour drive. 20ish minutes to drive to Shivani's apartment in South Carolina, where Randi will also meet us, and then 2.5ish hour drive westward. Going to be a long but fun filled day. The group and I are also trying to figure out Galentine's day next month. We're spending that day at Charrise's place. 

There are times were I am lonely and sad and find myself checking my old email to see if he has reached out and then feel like I'm falling through the Earth when I see nothing. But then one of the girls bring me back to the ground and help mentally stabilize me. I have been truly blessed to become part of this group. The fuss they make when my phone booted me from the group chat, then when the new one was made and I didn't respond until 11PM, they were freaking out because they wanted to make sure I was able to still see the messages despite knowing I rarely text the group. -smiles- 

Another update is Gerald is having his wedding ceremony in August in Bohol! He personally invited me to join due to him wanting the international students to all come and reunite again. I haven't told them all I stopped drinking, hopefully if I decide to go they won't peer pressure me into drinking. They may not have been the reason why I was constantly drinking, but they encouraged me drinking as much as I did. But they also were there for me during every quiet heartbreaking moment in college and helped me adjust and not feel so out of place as I did. 

Anyways, that's the update for now. I am not posting as much as I did these past few months because I am slowly closing myself off, trying not to, but it is hard. Eventually I'll feel somewhat normal again. I know I'll have good days and bad days. Like everything else in my life, I can handle it.