I feel sad today. Like I want to cry. I know he took off just so we'd be off together. But that was when we were in a really good place...being just friends sucks. At least he confirmed he doesn't look at this blog. Or hasn't in a while. So that makes me happy. That means I can't be fully honest without feeling too guilty.
I miss the flirting, the romantic words. I miss him just lighting up my day. We agreed to be friends. Just friends. At times I think we're doing fairly well. And then a moment happens where there silence. And things I use to say isn't allowed. I've held back so much just because I know he's trying his hardest to be a friend. It sucks ass.
I'll be fine. I'll always be fine. Today is just a hard day is all. I miss how it was. I miss teasing him and getting under his skin. Who ever he gets with, I know he'll give her the whole world, because despite himself, he knows how to love. And his love is the greatest thing I've ever known.
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