What if it all works out?
Been having a lot of big emotions, and sometimes I get way too overwhelmed and feel like I'm loosing my grip and that I rather just let it all go. But somehow I end up tightening my grip and I make it through another day of everything. Full disclosure, I suffer from depression and anxiety; along with almost always experiencing imposter syndrome when I'm at work or around friends/peers, resulting in me breaking in the seams of my life. Today was the first day I broke down in complete utter tears. Sat in my car, the music broke through me and everything I have been feeling broke free and I started screaming and had a full blown crying session in my car, lasting 30 minutes. By the time I was done, my throat was hurting, my eyes heavy and I looked awful. Did the weight I felt slide off? No idea. But I feel more balanced and my head felt slightly lighter and emptier. My last post, I was very frustrated with everything. No idea how I ended up losing my hearing temporarily and had ...
