47 Tabs

This song has been on repeat on my morning drives for the past week. It honestly has put me in a decent to good mood before work. 

Been stressed greatly due to trying to get out of my comfort zone at work and start scribing. It's much harder than I thought. And I get fed up whenever I'm not to where I want to be or if I make a mistake. I stress so bad about it. Thankfully my team has been very understanding about everything. Taking baby steps and everyone has worked together to find different ways to help me learn to scribe and work with how my brain would understand/do things. Again, I can never say enough about how great of a team I got blessed to join. 

Also weird and off topic, had a blast from the past reach out to me on Instagram. Very weird because he also has this huge crush and confessed his feelings often to me and even when I thought I had feelings for him and, honestly not going to lie, lead him on, he understood I was hurting from love and just looking to patch things up so I can deal with life and my feelings weren't the same as his. He is a good guy. He wanted to reconnect because we were good friends, and he has had a girlfriend for a few years it looks like(and she seems so adorable! From what I know they are a great match and so proud and happy for him). We just been talking about video games and where we are in life.

Been playing a few new small games with the group. Phil has us playing Liar's bar and it's hilarious because it's basically Russian roulette, and Lin has us paying Side Effects. Side effects is such a fun game, you test pills with a chance of dying. Hahah, and we can fuck with each other. Which we do. Lin fuck with Luke and I fuck with Phil. Also got Lego Party to put in our game rotation for the weekend. (Honestly gaming from 10am to 4 or 5pm is intense, I normally stick to gaming for maybe 3 or 4 hours if that but it's fun being included and laughing so hard again.)

Girl's trip is next Saturday. Pretty excited for that. Gonna take a train to another city here and explore and have fun with everyone. If this trip goes well(it's the first big group trip outside of comfort areas for everyone) then we'll be planning another one for the whole weekend and stay the night together.