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"I won't, but I could pull that bottle off that shelf"

Roughly 8 years sober now. I cannot lie and say I've been tempted to pick it up again. Going through college basically a drink on hand, egged on by my batchmates because it was something to do. The Filipino culture...is great but alcoholism runs deep in many families there. And runs very deep in my family. 

One thing I never stated, I did start drinking in middle school, casually drank in highschool, and went hard in college. I was slowly killing myself but it made me feel so good. Always made me feel better and not feel weird around others and just deal with life. 

8 years. I do at times stare down that aisle and the urge to grab a few and hit the clubs like I did in the Philippines. Haha. But I will stay on this path. Some days are harder than others. Some days even just holding the bottle and putting it back works like a charm in making me realize how much I put into sobriety and how many people I have to support me in not drowning myself in that vice. (Those Abbie will forever be interested in me having a drunk night again with her).

This song popped up on my tiktok and I sat in my car after work just listening it on repeat, knowing I've come far and I'll continue clawing myself forward.