March 2026

Last year in March loved the month. Enjoyed it. This year....well fuck this shit. Fuck everything. Just fuck it. Fuck this, fuck that. Fuck it. Been under the weather but just enough to not feel good, to have my ear still be clogged with sinus pressure, but well enough to push through work barely hearing elderly patients. Doctors literally telling me, I'm on the mend and everything looks good. My head feels like it's splitting and I want to throw in the damn towel and call it. On top of now sneezing more and the doctor suggesting I may have seasonal allergies...no. fuck this. Also fuck what's going on in the world. Fuck that shit. I live in one of the WORSE timelines. The only saving grace to all of this is my parents being safely back in Florida, which I want them to come as soon as they can to me. Honestly would feel better if my brother and his husband were near by too. Like this just suck. Everything sucks. I have nothing good, pleasant, happy to say. I'm so tired of trying to be positive. So tired of "keeping together" when all I am is stressed to the point I'm in tears now. My anxiety is through the roof almost every day. But no...it's okay, I'm around people I like and care for(my coworkers) which is true, but holy fucking shit can anything else go fucking wrong this month, this year? Can I somehow go back to sleep and restart and hope for things to be different? Like fuck all this.